Sometimes things are hard [personal Journal]

My Orange Penguin

9/2/2016

It's September! I've been back to school for less than a month, and I already hate it, obviously. But I do enjoy seeing little freshman's spirits break as they start high school. Like, really?! I've already been through this shit, so don't you fucking complain! Things change in high school. Speaking of which....

For the longest time I thought I'd be single forever, but that also changed recently. To be honest I'm so happy that I found a boyfriend. He's funny, dorky, smart, and kind. I thought things between us were great, but I should know better by now. Less than a day ago, I feel like something is wrong. I don't know what, but I know it's between us. I don't like it and I want to fix it, but I don't know how. For the longest time I've kept my walls up; they've been there for so long, I've barely even noticed them anymore.

I'm trying my hardest to let him in, and break my walls. I'm doing my best.......

....I just hope.....

......this time.....

.......My "best".....

.....is good enough.....