Sometimes things are hard [personal Journal]

I'm Just a Fucking Idiot!

I try and try and try to get things right but it never works! I'm just so fucking stupid.

School is a bitch. My grades are fine, but the people I have to deal with piss me off! Some of the teachers are cool, but then some want to be a fucking asshole about EVERYTHING! Teachers, I can handle for a little while, their opinions mean little to nothing to me.

No, it the fucking students I have a problem with, and not just the fact that Some are just so fucking disrespectful. I'm a passive person, OK? I don't like making people angry, but it's so hard not to when people are just so sensitive. And the fact the what I say and what I mean, have a very different meaning.

Long story short, I'm not good with people Period.

Home is slightly better. I live with my grandma and she's not so bad. We have our moments, but it's nothing serious. Mom is ok. We love each other, even if we want to strangle the other one at times, but that's family. Recently, I've been thing about two things: getting a job, and getting my license.

Both have still yet to come true.

My stories on Wattpad are shit, no one reads them. I wouldn't blame people for not liking them, they're stupid. I thought that maybe I could do something right, but I was again wrong. Ideas are hard, and they never last when you always second guess yourself. Over thinking things kills your creativity, and strangles the soul. I've lost too much sleep over thinking.

I know complaining won't fix any of my problems, but I don't really care. No one really does in the beginning, but you have to wait for the middle and ending. That's the best part.

I feel like I just bother people for no reason. You know?