I'm Not Crazy. {Jemi}

Without You.

I really wanted to die.

I couldn't kill the baby last night...I couldn't even sleep.

I hopped in the shower and slipped on a pair of clothes then headed to Family Plan Associates. I wiped falling tears,I can't believe I'm doing this by myself.

I parked and walked in.

"May I help you?"

"I want an abortion."

"Sorry,but we don't do abortions on New Years."

"Please."

"I'm sorry miss...plus we have to have a conseltation 24 hours before the abortion."

I sighed,I walked out and thought,I ran to my car and drove to the Woman's clinic,I parked my car,"May I help you?"

"I want abortion pills."

"Are you sure."

"Yes."

"Okay,we will send you a prescription at your local pharmacy."

"Thank you."

I got back in my car and I headed to my pharmacy.

"Demi Lovato-Swift." I said to the window,"Here is your misoprostol pills. You'll take 4 of them every 3 hours and put them under your tongue,don't swallow."

"Thank you." I drove off and drove home. I ran inside and put 4 pills under my tongue,I kept them there as I found my black hair die.

I started dying my hair black. The pills finally dissolved,I hope this works.

I got in the shower.

I got out and dried my hair. I headed to my bedroom,I looked around,my life seems so empty now. I looked at pictures of Derrick and I's wedding pictures,I sighed.

I started crying,I through the pictures,"Why did you have to leave!?!!? WE WERE GOING TO HAVE A BABY TOGETHER!!" I yelled,I then got off the bed and pushed my matteress off and destroyed everything.

I screamed,I was crying,I was going crazy. 

"I HATE EVERYONE!! I SHOULD BE DEAD!!" I screamed.

The doorbell rang.

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SHORT BECAUSE I NEED TO GO TO BED BUT I WANTED TO UPDATE. THE STRUGGLE IS REAL. SORRY.