I'm Not Crazy. {Jemi}

Something I didn't think through.

I glared at Meaghan and got ready for bed. I tucked myself into bed.

..

I woke up the next day,"Ms.Lovato-Swift,you got rewarded to call a family member before breakfast,you want a call?" the nurse asked,"Sure." I got up and followed her the the phonebooth,"You get 15 minutes." the nurse smiled and walked off. I sighed and dialled up Taylor.

"Hello?" she answered,

"Taylor Swift?" I asked,smiling a little.

"Yes,who is this?" she asked.

"This is Demi.Demi Lovato." I smiled,"DEMI!! OMG HOW ARE YOU!?!! THEY TREATING YOU WELL!?" she said,fixing to cry,I laughed a little,"Yeah,they are...I miss your cooking this food is shit." I said. "Are you getting out soon?"she asked.

"No...I'm afraid not.." I sighed,"Oh...Stay Strong,Demi. I really want to see you and Derrick would want you too." she said,I sighed,"I have to go..Breakfast time.." I sighed,"Bye,Demi!!!"

"Bye Tay." I hung up and headed to the cafeteria,I saw Joe smiling at me,I took his hand and took him to the other room,"I gotta tell you something." I looked at him,"Are you.....breaking up with me?" he asked,I sighed,"Yes."

"Why?.." he said in a disappointment tone,"I think I rushed into something I didn't fully think through.." I looked at him,he sighed,"Alright.." he slowly walked off,"We can still be friends.." i said,he turned around,"I don't think I can be friends with someone I told everything to and who I gained feelings for.." he headed back to the  table,I looked down,

I headed back to the table and started eating,I looked at Joe,he doesn't even look at me,I sighed. I suddenly felt a gust of wind,like I did at Derrick's funeral.

Funeral.

Funeral..

Funeral as the ceremonies honoring a dead person. 

I lost,I ran to my dorm to the bathroom,I grabbed Meaghan's razor,"DEMI NO!! STOP!!" Meaghan yelled,I started cutting my wrist like crazy,"HE'S DEAD. HE'S GONE AND I HAVE TO SUFFER!! I'M NOT FUCKING CRAZY!!" I yelled.

"DEMI,YOU'RE GOING TO GET ME IN TROUBLE!!!" Meaghan yelled,I screamed,cutting my thighs then cutting my wrists. "DEMI GIVE ME THAT!!"

"I'M NOT CRA--" everything became blurry and dizzy,i collapsed on the floor,unconcious. 

There I lay,in pure darkness with my lifeless body,am I dead? I wondered,did I finally commit suicide? I then saw a bright light in  the pure darkness. Is this a dream or am I in a tunnel?

I heard voices,but then they just stopped.

"Demi?" a guy that looked like Derrick,"Derrick?" I asked."Hey babe." he smiled,"I ran to him and hugged him tight. "I missed you babe,don't you ever leave me." I looked at him,"I'll never leave you,promise something.." he smiled.

"What is it?" I kissed his cheek,"Promise me,you'll move on..move on if you make it..I don't want you to stay depressed because of my death..I want you do date this Joe guy,and if you guys make it out of rehab...I want you to move on..Remarry and make him happy like you did with me..make alot of babies,Demi."

"I can't do that,Derrick,I LOVE YOU." I looked at him,"I love you too,Demi. I love you enough to let you go and be happy. Your happiness means everythin g to mean."

"But--"

"Promise me."

"Derrick,I--"

"Demetria,I don't hear your promising."

"I promise,Derrick. I might be dead."

"If you're dead,you're with me forever." Derrick smiled."I want to be dead."

"Demetria Devone Lovato,I didn't marry this person with no spirit. I married someone who has an amazing spirit. I know you want to stay alive."

"Not if I'm not living with you." I said,Derrick slammed his lips on mine,"I love you and I want to see your corpse alive." he looked at me.

"Now I know 

That I can't make you stay

But where's your heart?

But where's your heart?

But where's your...

And I know

There's nothing I can say

To change that part

To change that part

To change..." I sang.

"Demi.." Derrick sighed,I started crying.

"So many

Bright lights, they cast a shadow

But can I speak?

Well is it hard understanding

I'm incomplete

A life that's so demanding

I get so weak

A love that's so demanding

I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living

I am not afraid to walk this world alone 

Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home"

I fell down crying,"Demi..it's going to be alright...I'll always be here,watching you. Like you said,I'm your nightingale." Derrick smiled.

"I love you." I kissed his lips.

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Is Demi alive or dead?

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*This isn't suppose to be triggering and if it it to people who self harm,I'm sorry but please stay strong because you are so much better then that!<3*

ILY.

xxxChloe.