I'm Not Crazy. {Jemi}

A Little Romance.

It was time to let him go..

I did a big sigh and slid off my marriage rings,I put them on the table by my bed,I got up and handed to Joe's door and knocked.

"Oh hey Demi.." he looked at me,"Yes...but where could we go?..We can't get out of here." I looked at him,"Don't worry about that..just go get ready and I'll pick you up at dinner time." he winked,"Alright." I smiled a little,I headed back to my room.

"Big mistake,Dems." Meaghan smirked,"Shut up." I glared. She chuckled,strumming her guitar,I rolled my eyes and got in the shower. I trimmed my legs with scissors,since they took my razor away,"What the fuck are you doing?" Meaghan looked at me,"I don't have a razor so.." I was sitting on the toilet lid,cutting my leg hair.

"Here." Meaghan got up and handed me a razor,I just stared at it,"Are you going to take the fucking razor or not? I hit it from the nurses." she glared,"Thank you.." I took it from her and started shaving my legs.

Once I got down I slipped on a flowery dress and a blue cardigan with orange flip flops. I curled my hair,I slipped on some jewelery and  perfume. Joe finally knocked on my door,I smiled and answered,"Wow..you clean up good." he smiled,"Thanks.." I blushed,"Can we take it slow and easy..I haven't done this for a while.." I bit my lip.

"Of course." he smiled,"Let's go." he took my hand and led me to the date,"Oh my..." I gasped,"You like it?" Joe smiled,"It's beautiful,everything is great."

It was a picnic by the lake the rehab had,it was absolutely perfect,I smiled and sat down,"So how did you get the food?" I smiled as he got the food out,"I know people." he smirked,  "Uh huh." I smiled and took a bite of my good,"Oooh."I  moaned,"What?" he looked at me worried,"I forgot what real food tasted like,omg." I closed my eyes chewing.

He laughed,we started eating,"Oh shit,I forgot,do you want some champagne?" he smiled,pulling out a bottle,I looked at him,shocked,"I told you..I know people." he smiled then he poured two glasses of champagne."Thank you." I smiled.

I sip  my glass then continued eating,"Thank Joe." I smiled."We're not done. We're going to canoe." Joe smiled and got up,"Canoeing? What? They have that here?!" I said,confused,"Of course. If you did some activities you would know." he smiled and helped me up.

"God,Jonas,you're on roll." I giggled,he handed me a lifevest and I slipped it on,He helped me on the canoe,then he got  on,he started paddling the boat,I giggled,watching,he shook the canoe a little,I screamed. He smirked,"Jerk." I popped the 'k'.

"The one and only." he smiled at me,"Why are you looking at me like that?" I blushed,"Nothing.." he looked away,I bit my lip.

We went around the lake for a good 20 minutes before the sun went officially down,I got off and undid my lifevest,Joe sat on the blanket,looking at the stars,I smiled and sat next to him,"Stars are so beautiful." he said,I smiled and slowly laid my head on his shoulder,looking at the stars.

He looked at me,I looked at him,"Don't hurt me..." I whispered and placed my hand on his cheek and kissed his lips softly. He softly put his hands on my waists,kissing me,I  smiled as we kissed. It felt perfect,could I even be falling in love with him?

"Demi.." he pulled away,resting his forehead on mine,"Yeah?" I looked him in the eyes,"Be my girlfriend,please.." he begged,I giggled,"I thought that kiss meant we were." I bit my lip,"I thought so did too,but I didn't want to be misheard." he smiled.

"I'll be your girlfriend." I smiled,pecked his lips,"We should probably go..before we get in trouble." Joe helped me up and we headed inside,"So I'll see you tomorrow?" he stopped at my door,"Of course,we have breakfast together." I smiled,he kissed my knuckles,"Right,I'll miss you." he leaned in closer,"No I'll miss you." I leaned in,"Impossible." he leaned so close that our lips are about to touch.

"That is true..your room  is actually down the hall." I smile,he chuckled and kissed me,I put my hand on his chest,"Bye,see you tomorrow." I smiled and headed inside,I changed into my pajamas.

"I think  you're making a mistake.." Meaghan said to me,"I don't care anymore."I sat on my bed,smiling,"I'm trying to help you."

"Helping what? Keep trying to make me upset!? I have to come to a fact that Derrick is gone,he isn't coming back,I know it's too soon that he's been gone a month now. I've been stuck in this hell hole for a month now and I'm trying to make myself help again. I haven't ate good in days that you could see my ribs. I need to be happy and healthy again." I looked at her.

"Oh,so you're just using Joe as your ticket to get out of here?" she sat up,"No,I--" she interrupted me,"Like when I told you that was used his girls to get out,but you were so pissed at him,you're doing the same exact thing to him. You think he is going to make you happy,and once you leave this play you'll forget all about your rehab love,realizing you are crazy." she crossed her arms.

"I'm not crazy. I'm not the crazy hippy lesbian who likes to stay in her fucking room and smoke coke and LOVES to stay in rehab instead of being in some light and knowing people." I glared at her,"TAKE THAT BACK!" she yelled."You don't think you're crazy because you just realize,came to your senses,that your little husband is dead. So you're done here,go tell your adminstrators,tell them your story and go back your bags." she glared.

"Can you just shut the fuck!?! I don't want to go home,I don't want to walk into that house and see everything certain fucking think of Derrick's knowing he died,ran over when possibly he could be saved,if he didn't go and talk to his brother. I wouldn't be here,I would of been with my husband PREGNANT,but instead I saw my husband die in my own eyes and I killed our baby,our baby that we tried for. If you're so pissed off that I have Joe,I'm sorry." I laided back,furious.

"Joe isn't as he is cracked up to me,we slept together,sweetheart." she laid back,my cold brown eyes looked at her."Chillax,he is one reason why I went lesbian,he suck at sex so bad." she rolled my eyes.

I became silent.

"I'm sorry to hear that about your husband,I'm sorry. Really. I just think...who would you pick if Joe and you died and you found Derrick in heaven  waiting on you,who would you pick? Maybe Derrick is upset with you because you moved on to somebody very quickly. I care about you,Demetria..I just..want you to make the right thing." she said,she has a point.

I looked at my knees,thinking.

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What is Demi thinking about!?

5 comments please?  :(

xxxChloe