I'm Not Crazy. {Jemi}

Emergency.

I tried killing myself.

I flicked my eyes opened,I was in a room,it had no color,but alot of machines. "Oh you're awake,Mrs.Swift." the dude smiled.

I was in the hospital.

"I'm not crazy,I'm not crazy." I said outloud," I never said you were." he said,then Miley came in. "I'm not crazy,I'm not crazy." I kept repeating.

I grabbed a shot that was next to my bed,"This will kill me right? If I stabbed this in my heart,it would kill me right!?"

"You lied to me." Miley wiped her eyes.

"I'm not crazy,I'm not crazy!"

"You said you were fine,you're not fine! That was a lie!!" Miley said,mad. I looked at her upset,"Mrs.Swift,can you please give me the shot back..."

I looked at Miley,she was crying,I then hesitated,but handed the doctor the shot back,I laid back down,"I'm not crazy,I'm not crazy."

"Demetria...we need you to listen. You need help--"

"I'm not crazy,I'm not crazy."

"We called a Psychiactric Rehab outside of LA,we are going to take you there in 2 days." he told me,"I'm not crazy." I repeated.

"Demi.." 

I ripped the IVs off my arms and ran out,"SECURITY!!" he yelled and the security ran after me,"NO!!! I'M NOT CRAZY!!" I fell down to my knees and started crying.

The security guards came and picked me up and carried me back to my room. They put me back on the bed and chained my arms to the bed.

"I'm sorry,Demetria,but your friend here,saw you passed out on the floor,it's a suicide attempt and the way you just acted proved to me that you need help." the doctor told me,I just stayed quiet.

"You can ignore me all you wan,Mrs.Swift,I'll see you later." he got up and left. 

"Demi..." Miley looked at me,

I ignored her,I sighed and turned on the tv.

"Former Jonas Brothers singer,Joe Jonas has entered rehab. He didn't want to,but he was force by his family for psychiactric help. Our thoughts and prayers are with Joe's family and Joe."

I broke my chain and threw the remote.

"DEMETRIA DEVONNE!! Can you just calm the fuck down!! I tried helping you!!" Miley raised her voice,"YOU TRIED TO HELP ME? YOU DIDN'T HELP ME WITH SHIT!" I yelled,"IF YOU DIDN'T COME TO MY HOUSE,HELL I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW YOU CAME IN AND LET ME DIE AT MY BATHROOM FLOOR,THEN YOU WOULD OF HELPED ME."

"HOW WOULD I HELP YOU IF I JUST LET YOU DECAY ON THE FLOOR!? HOW DO YOU THINK I WOULD OF LIVED KNOWING I LET MY FRIEND DIE!?" Miley yelled back.

"THEN YOU WOULD OF UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL WHEN I LET DERRICK DIE." I looked at her and we all became quiet.

"I'm sorr,Demi...but I care about too much to let you die..Derrick wouldn't want you do die that way." Miley hugged me,"I feel like someone ripped my heart out of my chest and it's being stabbed..."

"I'm sorry sweetheart,but he loves you so much that he would want you to be happy." Miley stroked my hair,I wiped my eyes.

She handed me the remote and I flipped through channels and I came across a music video.

I'd sell my soul just to see your face. 

And I'd break my bones just to heal your pain.

In these times I need a saving grace, but time is running out and I'm starting to lose my faith.

But if I told you I loved you, would it make you want to stay?

I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and making you walk away.

I started laughing,

And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?

(I can't go another day without you)

Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?

(Girl you gotta know I love you)

My heart's on my sleeve, but it's turning black.

(I guess I know what it feels like it to be alone)

Without your touch I'm not gonna last.

(I know you know that I need ya just to carry on)

It feels like my walls are caving in.

(You'd always hold me before I left you hanging on)

And I'll do anything to have you here again.

"What's so funny,Dems?" she sat down,"This song reminded me about when Derrick sang this in his underwear,before our wedding day,it was hilarious." I laughed a little.

She looked at me,I looked down at my wedding rings,I sighed,"I think I should take these off.." 

"Only if you want to,Demi.."

I sighed,I decided to keep them on,"I can't believe I'm a widow at 22..."