I'm Not Crazy. {Jemi}

Nightingale

This will be the last time I will see his presents again,but nonliving.

I opened the door,"Hey,how are you doing?..I heard about Derrick."

"I'm doing fine."

"Really?" Miley looked at me.

"Yeah.." I faked a smiled,"You want me to spend the night?" Miley asked,"No..I'm fine..I kind of want to be alone." I sighed,"Alright baby doll. Love you." Miley hugged me and left.

I sighed and shut the door.

I slipped on a black strapless the I put on black lacey tights. I put a big leather belt around my tiny waist. I guess figured out I killed my unborn baby,I am against abortion,but it's for the best. It wouldn't want a mother like me.

I put on a black blazer on and black heel booties,I did my make up and hair.

"Demi,you ready?" Taylor yelled,I put on a gold head band and looked in the mirror. "Yeah." I grabbed my clutch and headed downstairs,I got in the car and Tony drove to the funeral.

I looked out window,then I looked out at my wedding ring.

"We're here."  Tony said,I sighed and got out,I looked at the church,I took the deep breath and headed inside,I first headed inside I came aross a table full of pictures of Derrick,I walked to the table.

There were pictures of him and his parents,then there were pictures with him and his family,I sighed.

I smiled at a photo of me and him when we went to the bahamas with his parents,I was in his arms as he was kissing my cheek,I felt a few tears drop.

"I'm so sorry,Demi." Lucas came to me,Derrick's friend,"Thank you." I hugged him,I cracked. I started crying nonstop.

"It's going to be okay,Demi..." he held me type,"I thought I could move on...but I love him so much..that I don't think I can.." I sighed.

"Yes,you can. You're a strong girl." Lucas looked at me,I wiped my eyes,"Thank you.." I pulled away and headed to the reception room,I saw his casket and everything,I covered my mouth,I ran to his casket. "Hey baby..I miss you so much!!" I kissed his casket.

"I love you." I laid my head down,Taylor came and padded my back,"He was an amazing man.." she said.

..

The ceremony was fixing to start,I sat next to Taylor,I took her hand.

"Let us commend Derrick Swift to the mercy of God." The preacher spoke. I sighed,then we prayed. 

"Everyone get out the 'songs of God' and turn to page 232." 

I grabbed the book and turned to the the page,we started singing the song,I stared at Derrick's casket,Hoping he would open that casket and say,'surprise'.

I held onto Taylor's hand tight. I wiped falling tears. I closed the book once the song ended. The preacher said a few more kindness things.

We all got up and followed the barriers to the cemetery spot. I sat next to Taylor again,I sighed. The wind of blowing.

"This is probably the most solemn moment of the service.Let's pray." we all bowed our heads and prayed.

Since I was his wife,I got to put a rose on top of his casket,along with his parents and siblings. "Bye baby.." I sighed,I suddenly felt a strong gust of wind hit me. I knew it was him.

"Hey baby.." I looked at the sky.

I headed back to my car,"Hey,can I come over?..." Taylor asked,"Yeah sure." she got in my car and I drove home. "I wrote a song for Derrick..wanna hear it?"

"Of course!" Taylor smiled.

I parked my car and led her to my piano,I started playing.

"I can't sleep tonight, wide awake and so confused

Everything's in line, but I am bruised

I need a voice to echo, I need a light to take me home

I kinda need a hero, is it you?

I never see the forest for the trees, I could really use your melody

Baby I'm a little blind, I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my Nightingale, sing to me I know you're there. You could be my sanity, bring me peace, sing me to sleep.

Say you'll be my Nightingale" I sang as Taylor listened.

"Somebody speak to me, cause im feeling like hell

Need you to answer me, I'm overwhelmed

I need a voice to echo, I need a light to take me home

I need a star to follow, I dont know

I never see the forest for the trees, I could really use your melody

Baby I'm a little blind, I think it's time for you to find me

Can you be my Nightingale, sing to me I know you're there.

You could be my sanity, bring me peace, sing me to sleep. Say you'll be my Nightingale."

I finished the song,"What you think?" I sighed.

"It's awesome,he would of loved it." Taylor hugged me. she said LOVED,like in the past,it hit me,he's gone...forever.

"GO."

"What?"

"I need you to go."

"Why?"

"Because,just please." I sighed,

"Alright..bye Demi?" she left.

I sighed and headed to my bathroom and pulled out my razor..

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another cliffhanger.