This pain | jjk + oc

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<Minji's POV>
I sit outside of me and Jimin's apartment, in Jeongguk's car.

We sit here, in silence. It's not awkward, in fact, it's very comfortable.

I've never felt so comfortable, in my life.

I don't know how he does it, but he makes me feel safe.

We sit here, hand in hand, fingers intertwined.

I'm happy.

I turned to look at him, and for a moment, he continued looking forward, and I could see his define and strong jaw line.

But soon I met his coffee sweet eyes.

I looked at him for a few seconds, but didn't say anything.

I wasn't trying to be weird,

I was taking in, and enjoying what was laid before my eyes.

I assume He noticed I was looking at him with loving and admiring eyes, as he smiles, a sweet, warm, loving, caring, soft, kind smile.

"Good night, beautiful. Thank you for tonight, and for the day we met, and everything in between." He says to me in a warm tone.

I leaned forward, and kissed his nose.

"Goodnight Kookie.. Thank you."

I smiled and left the car.

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It's late. 1:58 in the morning, to be exact.

I try to walk in quietly, assuming Jimin was asleep, but no, I walk in as Jimin and Lee-lee run to the front door and slam me with questions.

"Where's Jeongguk?" Lee asks,

"What happened? Why are you back so late?!" Jimin asks,

"Are you two going out again?" Lee asks,

Oh my god, this is getting no where..

"YAH!! Stop!!" I yell. I didn't wanna be bombarded with dumb ass questions, so I run to the room and lock the door.

I honestly didn't wanna tell them, they'll think I've gone crazy, since this is so unlike me.

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"If you didn't wanna talk about it, you should have just said so!" Jimin yells from outside the door.

"Was it that bad? Did he rape you? I knew he was weird." Lee yells also from outside the door.

Once again, I'm being bombarded.

I get up, walk to the door, and try to grow some in order to tell them what needs to be told to my big bro and best friend.

I don't want to see their faces when I tell them, and by them, I mainly mean Jimin.

He can jokes about me sleeping with boys, dating, getting married, etc. but he jokes because he assumes, because of my anxiety, and self harm, and self conscious, and fear, that it won't ever become a reality.

I guess he needs to know that he's wrong.

Their still screaming at me, worried, and questioning pretty much everything.

"We kissed." I said just above a whisper.

"Wait, Jiminie, shut up, she said something! What, Min?"

"We kissed!" I yelled, still talking to a door.

"I think I'm-, I'm falling in love with him."

They were both silent for a moment, before Lee says

"Min, can you open the door?"

I don't want to hear what Jimin has to say, but I needed someone, I need someone right now to talk me either out of this, by telling me love doesn't exist, and telling me that I'm going crazy. Or talk me into this, by telling me it's okay, that I'm allowed to love.

Either way, I open the door. As soon as I do so, Lee gets off her ass which was sitting on the floor, waiting for me to do something.

She gets up, and hugs me.

It was calming, I feel, I feel, okay. I'm okay.

"You, you finally let go!" Lee says in my shoulder, knowing how much of a struggle I've had with this.

"I'm so proud of you." She hugged me a little longer, but once she let go, I remembered that I still have to face Jimin.

I make eye contact with him. He starts off with
"I can't believe you." Oh shit..

"I'm sor-" but he cuts me off with

"Are you happy?"

I thought for a moment, but I knew the answer already.

"Happier than I've been in a long time." I say as I start to tear up.

"No more self harm?" He asks with hope in his tone, which I haven't heard from him when he talks about my self harm before.

"No more."

He smiles and picks me up in a hug.

"I'm so proud of you, Min."

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