This pain | jjk + oc

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(Minji's pov)
"Why?" Jimin sits on his bed, staring up at me and Jeongguk with confusion.

"I don't know, I-"

"So you just did? What was going through your heads?! Have you both lost your minds?! You had very few rules, and we trusted you two to sleep together, be together alone all the time, and so much more, and this is what you do?!" Jimin puts his head down, and holds his face with his hands. He's breathing heavily and sweating.

Me and Jeongguk stand in front of him, waiting for him to speak again.

"Did you force her, Jungkook? You told me you wouldn't.. I trusted you with my sister!"

Jimin stands up, and gets in Jeongguk's face, now screaming at him.

"Jimin! Can you quite down?!" I raise my voice back at him. I sigh, "The other members will hear you." I say, back in my normal tone.

"He didn't force me to do anything. I let him, which means it's both of our faults. In fact, I think Jeongguk was drunk. I don't think he knew what he was doing. Whenever he brought me to the room last night, he was sweating, and he kept slurring. I was the one that listened to him. He didn't even remember what had happened last night until a little while ago." I reached over and took Jeongguk's hand in mine. Reassuring him that I'm not upset with him.

Jimin sits back down, looking at our intertwined fingers, appearing uneasy about it.

"Have you told anyone?" Jimin asks, sounding surprisingly calm.

"Only you. We were gonna tell Namjoon as well, but we wanted you to know first." I answer him.

...

"How do you feel?"

What the hell? What does he mean?! Like how did it feel to have se-, um, that? Or like how do I feel about it? Um, wow, I don't know.

"Um, what?"

"How do you feel about the situation? How do you feel about Jungkook? How do you feel we should approach the situation?"

I like how he's using "situation" instead of "problem".

"Um, Jeongguk, you wanna answer him first?" I turn to my lover, who owns the hand I'm still holding.

"Okay, um, I feel like this was a bad decision, but worst comes to worst, she'll get pregnant, and I'll leave the band to raise a child with the love of my life. It's not that bad."

What?! No! He can't leave the band for something that's my fault! I mean, it's our fault, but if he was drunk, he had no control, which means it's primarily my fault. I can't let him give up his dreams.

"Minji?" I'm snapped out of my thinking by Jimin, who said something, but I didn't hear over my thoughts.

"Sorry, what?"

"What about you? How do you feel?" Oh shit, I don't know.

"Um, well I'm very sorry, and I feel ashamed of what I've done. It was a one time thing."

"You will tell Namjoon?" Jimin asks.

"Yes~ go ahead and call him in, we can tell him now."

"Alright." Jimin picks up his phone and sends a text message to Namjoon ssi. I take this opportunity when Jimin isn't looking to scoot closer to Jeongguk, our sides now touching.

Jimin looks at his phone for a few more second. He brushes his hair back with one hand, and sets his phone next to him, on the bed.

"Okay, he's on his way up."