My Beautiful Heartbreak

Simula

Huminga ako ng malalim habang nakatingin sa itim na mercedes sa harap ng villa namin dito sa Sant Antoni, Ibiza. My mind is crowded with doubts, and what ifs, nag dadalawang isip talaga ako. Hayss,

"Come on guys! Lets go. We dont wanna be late for our flight" Matt shouted. " and you pretty miss, dont worry too much I will back you up" wiggling hes brows at me.

"Uggh, shut up! You moron." showing him my fist in the air as if punching him. Tumawa lang ang walang hiya. E sya naman ang naglagay sa akin sa sitwasyong ito. Stupid jerk.

He's parents is going to celebrate their wedding aniversary and imbitado kami ng mga bata. Ayoko sana kaso wala na akong magagawa dahil everything is ready. At isa pa malaki ang utang na loob ko sa mga magulang ni Matt. And the least thing I could do is to disappoint them.

The kids giggles thou habang pasakay sa likod ng kotse. Mukhang excited ang mga ito cause this will be their first time to ride a plane out of the country, out of the island.

Habang umaandar ang sasakyan patungo sa airport my son Hugo ask me " nay, are we gonna stay their for good?" . Huh, what is he thinking. "Hindi nak, were just going to visit your grannies for their aniversary. Di ba daddy Matt? I nudge the guy beside me with wide eyes to say yes.

"Amm, yes kuya Hu and its vacation so..at diba tutugtog kayo sa party?" ani ni Matt.

"Yes daddy!" my daughter Heaven beam at him.

After a while the car was filled with silence I look back to check on them only to meet the brooding eyes of my son Hunt. His cocking his brows and biting his lips a little. His eyes curious, I know.

"What?, I ask. "You seems to be bothered, you dont want to go?

"No nanay, I like to but..what if axjfdkjhlsss ulit" he said his last words a slur.

"Ano? Hindi kita maintindihan", I look at him with a frown brows.

"Uggghhh, I, Im ahh nothing" hes irate response and slump on his seat while looking outside the car window. Weird.

Nagulat ako sa malakas na tawa ni Matt, that I jump on my seat."Ano ba! Sira ulo ito oh. Anong nakakatawa?" sinapak ko siya sa braso. Hindi man lang nasaktan ang loko. Kinurot ko nga.

"Aray! Stop it Im driving! He keeps on laughing tho. He glance at me. "You know" he said, " he's really like someone I know" and sigh.

Of course I know who he meant. Pero hindi na yun dapat alalahanin pa. Its already in the past. Thirteen years is enough. At sa totoo lang hindi lang naman si Hunt ang may ganuon na ugali halos lahat silang apat, besides Heaven na masayahin at madaldal. The rest are arrogant and snob. Just like their dad, whose name is forbidden.

I close my eyes and think of the possible things to happen. Pero wala, blanko ang utak ko. Fear is the only emotion I felt. I took a deep breath and smiled bitterly at Matt whose now looking at me with guilt.

"Its okay Matt, this is bound to happen". really, he should stop stressing himself on us. Thankful ako sa kanya dahil andyan siya from the start, nahalos lahat ng desisyon niya ay nakabase sa sitwasyon ko. He should never forget that he has his own life too.

"You know you're all important to me, ayt? So stop worrying. Your strong and brave ,kaya, alam kong kaya mo na siyang harapin kung sakali." Liningon niya ang mga bata sa likod ganuon din ako to see if their listening. At mukhang hindi naman. Matt is really a good man.

Alam ng mga bata ang nakaraan ko, lahat. Wala akong inilihim sa kanila dahil ayaw kong pagdating ng araw ay sumbatan nila ako sa aking naging desisyon.

Pinatay ni Matt ang makina ng sasakyan hudyat na nakarating na kami sa airport. I look at him wondering.
"Paano ang kotse mo? tanong ko sa kanya.

"Jake will get it, may susi naman siya dyan" pertaining to the car. Jake is his cousin in mother's side.Tumango ako bilang pagsang ayon.

"Be ready guys, this will be a long ride and a lot more", he said thruthfully to the kids while smilling like an idiot that he is. My girls squeak at him in response.

So this is it! Im coming back.