Not an angel.

All good things come to an end

I didn't know... I really didn't know it would have gotten this bad! I knew I shouldn't have tried to make them hide me here... It got... There's too much blood. Please, please don't die... Please.

~earlier~

Later that day after kissing cas I stood on his balcony in his room and payed with my magic, it calmed me and that was the only thing that could at that point. I went inside because it felt like someone was watching me, so I pulled the curtains across and sat on his bed crying. Believe me, I feel like an asshole about all this but it's for his own good. After my magic didn't help I went to desperate measures and went to my escape. Cutting. But every time I made a cut it healed back up, not even leaving a scar. I got frustrated and heard a knock on the door, I opened the door to cas' bed room and stood at the top of the stairs looking down to try and see who's there. I could hear their voices but not see their faces to clarify.

"Sir, we have a warrant to search your house please step aside"

"Do you mind? I'm a little busy" cas said all angry, my fault.

"Please step outside" the men said and so cas did, as soon as I saw the bald man in a suit round the corner my eyes went wide. But he saw me and ran towards me, I jumped off the railing from the second floor and tried to run outside but one of them caught me

"LET HER GO!" Cas screamed and ran towards us, one of the men drew his gun and I swear in my mind this was all slow motion, from the moment he pulled the trigger to the moment where cas was on the ground coughing up blood and bleeding immensely. My heart stopped and I screamed in horror, I elbowed the man who was holding me so hard in the nose that it shot into his Brain and killed him. I got free and ran to cas' side.

"Please don't die... Cas please don't..." I cried hard and cradled his head in my lap, he coughed up more blood as gabe drove into the driveway starting running towards us. Everything was happening so fast, the men didn't care about the boys, they wanted me. So I held cas' hand and froze time. Everything was frozen but us two.

"It happened so fast, I couldn't save you" I said crying and holding cas tight

"No please... Don't cry..." He said coughing more and more

"It's my fault" I screamed

"No, it's not..." He said as his eyes fluttered and he stopped breathing. His hand went limp in mine and he stopped moving all together. I panicked

"CAS!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and hugged him tight. There was a flash of light and I was in that meadow covered in cas' blood and there was the woman.

"Madison..." She spoke softly as I just sat there and cried "you can fix this..." She said even softer and put her hand on my shoulder. I smacked it away and got up, clutching my fists together in rage. I glared at her with my eyes red and screamed

"It's my fault the only persons I've ever loved is now dead! Shot in cold blood!" I said and she nodded

"It is... But you can fix this" she said calmly like cas did when ever I was mad

"NO I CANT! He's dead... I can't fix anything anymore!" I screamed at her again.

"You can" she said and opened my palm pressing something into it.

"You can" she whispered before she disappeared again and I was back in a frozen world with a dead cas in my lap. I cried hard and looked into my hand, there was a small pendent. Very familiar... But I'm not sure where I've seen it before. I clutched and shut my eyes tight holding a hand over the spot where cas got shot, I was going to try to heal him.

I held my eyes tightly shut as I unfroze time because I wanted them to see what I was capable of. I held cas close and sang through tears the same song he wrote for me

"Say something I'm giving up on you"

Everyone went silent

"I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

Anywhere I... I would follow you

Say something I'm giving up on you" I cried harder and kept my eyes shut

"You're the one that I want... I'm not saying goodbye" I changed the lyrics and opened my eyes, light was dancing around me and cas. Everyone was astonished as I held the boy who was so dear to me.

"Say something, I'm not giving up on you" I whispered before I kissed him softly and hugged him tight. When the lights died down I rested my hand on his stomach and felt for the bullet wound but I couldn't find it. I slowly looked up at him and his eyes fluttered open. Any wounds he had were gone. He looked at me "I love you" he said and pulled me into him for a big hug. I hugged him for minutes before I heard one of the men talking on the phone. "No... She's more powerful then you" he said and then hung up, before I knew it they were getting into their cars and leaving without another word. 2 things were running through my mind at that exact moment in time, I'm never saying no to cas again and I need to find out who that lady is from my visions.

Now that the men are gone I told cas that I would leave, he told me I can't and so did gabe but I kept fighting them.

"You're so stubborn!" Gabe screamed at me. I slightly laughed and looked at cas

"I know I am..." I replied and slumped to the cough wearing new clothes since the others were blood stained.

"You're not leaving Madison I'm not losing you after I finally have you" cas said and sat beside me "I love you and I will always love you now stay" he said smiling wide

I laughed a bit and looked up at him, he had huge puppy dog eyes "fine! Just stop that!" I said and he laughed. "For someone who just died and got resurrected, you're pretty sure on what you want" I added, he nodded as gabe slowly left the room to let us have some privacy.

"All I want is you... You should have known that from the very beginning" he said and looked down at me

"Yeah yeah" I said punching him slightly in the chest, he laughed lightly

"It's true" he said and caught me off guard, he smiled sweetly and kissed me softly. Running his hands through my hand and to my neck. "It will always be true" he said and hugged me tight to his chest. And he stayed like that all night

I didn't know why I let him kiss me all those times, I mean not like I didn't want it but I was new to this. It just felt more well known when it was with him.