Steady Hands | E.D.

Chapter 19

  "Shut up!" I playfully hit a giggling Ethan after slipping on the rug. I swear, when we are together we act like children. After a few minutes we both calmed down.
  "Scarlet, can I ask you something?" That sentence gave me a sinking feeling, as it always does.
"Um, sure?" I said hesitantly.
  "Will you ever be able to forgive me for what I did?" He asked sincerely as he sat nervously on the couch. I shuffled in my seat a bit. Why is he making things awkward?
  "Ethan..can we not talk about that?" I shrugged.
  "Please."
  "Fine." I rolled my eyes and took a gulp, not sure what to say. "Ethan, I had nobody except for you. I have trust issues and you knew that. So for me to let you in and for you to do that.. I just- I don't know. I hold grudges, even if I don't want to."
He sighed and looked down. "It was a drunken mistake." He mumbled.
  "When you're drunk your sober thoughts come out." I added sharply. He clenched his jaw and look back at me.
  "Don't. I made a mistake. It wasn't my true thoughts, my true thoughts are you." I let out a humorous laugh.
  "Then you would have hit me up instead of that random whore."
  "You're just so mad about it because I helped you get through your shit and you feel like now you are on your own, and you can't handle that." He remarked. This kid is really trying me.
  I stood up and stared at him with piercing eyes. "I went through one of the hardest and worst situations of my life with nobody by my side so don't you dare say I can't handle being on my own." I raised my voice and was now yelling. He stood up too, towering over me.
   "Oh, right. I forgot. Everyone around you gets fucked up and dies. Maybe it'll be a good thing if you don't forgive me!" He yelled back. I stared at him in disbelief. I could tell by the look on his face that he instantly regretted the words that just slipped out of his mouth.
"Scarlet.. Oh my god. I'm so s-"
  "No." I cut him off in a whisper, whilst a tear escaped my eye. I took a step away from him. He gently wrapped his arms around me and rested his chin on my shoulder. I didn't push him off. He didn't say anything, he just stood there with me, being my comfort. My safe place. He has always been my safe place.
  I shook these thoughts out of my head and pulled away from him.
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Ethan's laughter boomed through my phone as I shushed him.
  "You're too loud!!" I giggled. We have been FaceTiming all night like teenagers. We have work early tomorrow and it's 4 am already.
  "We're so screwed!" He laughed again.
  "I think that tonight I learned more about you than I did in the 10 months we dated." I said jokingly.
  "I know right??" He agreed with me.
  "Alright Ethan, I really need to go to bed. Goodnight." I whispered. He smiled.
  "Goodnight baby girl."
  "Don't call me that." I scolded and with that I hung up the phone.

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