Steady Hands | E.D.

Chapter 15

"What are you doing tonight?" I asked shakily through the phone.
"I'm going drinking with the guys. I won't be back until late.. Like 3 am." He replied. Damnit. We got back from vacation after a week there yesterday.
"Oh, okay. Have fun! I love you!" I said enthusiastically before hanging up. I cradled my head in my hands as tears formed in my blue eyes. It's the worst day of the year.. It's my brothers death date. 6/13/09.
-
-
I lay in bed wide awake, staring at the ceiling.
"I'm never going to fall asleep. Not today, I miss you too much." I muttered to myself. I turned and checked the clock. 3:30 am.
"Fuck it- I'm going to Ethan's." I said to myself. I need him right now. He is the only person that can make this okay.
-
I used his spare key, because I didn't want to knock and wake him. I just wanted to crawl into his bed and hug him. As soon as I creaked open the door, I saw his shirt on the floor. Slob. I kicked it aside and tiptoed towards his room. I carefully opened the door, so he wouldn't wake.
"Ethan, oh my. Ugh!" I heard the moans of an unfamiliar girl. I stopped dead in my tracks with eyes wide enough to pop out.
"Fuuuckk." He groaned. My heart stopped. In that exact moment, I could feel it shattering in pieces. My mouth was opening, but no noise was coming out. All I could do was stand there, feeling my entire world collapse around me as he moaned someone's name that wasn't mine. The girl finally looked up and saw me.
"Ethan!" She screamed as she jumped off of him and under the covers. He sat up and saw me. There were tears in my eyes, but I fought harder than ever to stop them from dropping.
"Oh shit, Scarrlett." He slurred his words and wasn't focusing on one thing. He's drunk out of his mind.
"Don't worry babe, it's not what it looks like. We were just fucking, no feelings or anything." I could tell he was going to regret his words as soon as he woke up. I closed my mouth, as the shocking sensation turned quickly to anger. I stomped over and grabbed that bitch by her hair.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" She screamed at me as I dragged her by her hair off the bed and towards the door. I ignored her fighting and screaming and punched her as hard as I could in the face. Blood dripped from her nose.
"Get out of here you dirty, classless slutty ass fat whore!" I yelled with pain in my voice. I threw her and her clothes out the door and locked it. I turned around to see Ethan standing there, naked and trying not to fall.
"And you-" I screamed at him as I stepped closer to him.
"You promised me! You told me I could trust you and you told me you loved me! Do you know how much it took for me to let you in? I came here to cry to you because it's my brothers death date and instead of you helping me, you make this day 100000 times worse? Screw you! I hate you so much and I never want to see you again!" I yelled with so much passion as my voice cracked and shook. Tears were running down my face more than ever. He took a step towards me, I clearly snapped him back to soberness by yelling so loud. He looked broken and pitiful.
"Scarlet.. Just let me explain. Please-" I slapped him across the face and started walking out.
"I GOT DRUNK OUT OF MY MIND AND I WAS NOT THINKING STRAIGHT! SCARLET THIS IS THE ONLY TIME I EVER CHEATED PLEASE!" He called after me and ran after me but I climbed into my car and sped off without giving him a second look. As I sped through the streets, I finally started to process what just happened. I had to pull over.
"I promise you aren't making a mistake."
"When my eyes meet yours, I get this overwhelming emotion that I can't put into words."
"I'm here. I'll always be here."
I clutched my chest as his words flashed through my mind. I remembered his sweet hazel eyes, like muddy grass, staring through my fake smiles and telling me everything will be okay. I remembered his plump pink lips forming into a smirk as his dimples popped out. I remembered laying in the dark with him, feeling complete for the first time in my life. And then I thought about how now, I'm right back to where I was. Broken, lost, unwilling to live, unwanted, and lonely. My loud sobs filled the car as I begged for mercy on myself.
The only thing I could think about was how badly I wanted a car to come out of nowhere and hit me. And I haven't thought about that since before I met him.

Sorry for breaking your hearts😏😭 I have been planning this since I started the story. It's just getting good now. Sorry for the boring chapters before, I was trying to get y'all connected to their relationship :)