John

Sick?

** italics and underlined is characters speaking telepathically * *Bold Is characters thoughts*. *and regular text is monologue or actions*
And this is what I listened to while writing this chapter 😁✨

Masako POV

"Hey John will you tell me what your grandfather was talking about?" I asked
Everyone has gone home already and Ms. Nite is asleep on one of the coaches across the room from us.
"John? Please? At least talk to me."
"I'm sorry." He whispered
"What are you sorry for? John what's wrong?"
"I...I um it's nothing. Don't worry about it." He said looking away from me and to his mother asleep on the couch

"I never wanted to see her hurt again. Ya know? After Joey killed himself she was broken and well I was to. But she was strong enough to keep it together. I wasn't." He continued a tear rolling down his cheek.
"What do you mean you weren't strong enough? John? What'd you do?" I asked scared of the answer he would give me. I think I already know what he did.
"I did something that I shouldn't have. And I still regret it." He said vaguely obviously not wanting to tell me
"John you don't have to tell me I'm just worried about you. I don't want to see you hurting. I want you to be happy. But you can trust me. With anything. Ok?"
"Why?"
"Why what?" I asked
"Why do you care?" He asked quietly to say I was taken aback is a huge understatement.
"Why does anyone care? No one ever did before other than my family and a few others but they probably felt obligated to. So why?" He continued quietly looking me in the eyes he looked broken and confused.
He really doesn't see all of the people that care about him. He thinks they don't. That they just pretend to.
"John? Of course I care we all do. If we didn't care if I didn't care do you think I would be here right now? I swear for someone who's obviously very smart you can be such an idiot sometimes. John you're our friend and our family. The team we are your family to. And we all love you. And we will always be here for you." I said hugging him
"You're the best Masa." He said
"I don't want to be in here. I hate hospitals."he whispered to me
"Well maybe you'll be able to leave soon. I don't like hospitals either." I told him
"Masa are you ok?"
"John you would tell me if something was wrong right? Your grandfather well he was talking to you like you were sick?" I mumbled
"I am. But I'm not. I just had a bad habit that has made a reappearance. I'll be fine." He said giving me a small smile
"Bad habit?"
"Yea um well promise you won't tell anyone?" He asked me looking me in the eyes
"I promise."
"Well um I couldn't take it after..after my brother killed himself. I didn't want to...to be alive anymore. So I tried killing myself." He said rubbing his arms and I felt my heart shatter
"But it obviously didn't work." He said gesturing to himself
"I was hospitalized and I was depressed. I quit eating and sleeping. So they put me on different medicines and put me in counseling. And I slowly got better and then I came here to Japan and for the first time in a long time I was actually happy. I didn't care that I couldn't tell you guys who I really was. I was happy that I actually had friends." He said smiling brightly
"And then the team started splitting up because Naru found his brother and left for England. I wanted to stay but my Gramma got sick and they said that she wasn't going to get better so I went back to Australia. After she died I decided I no longer wanted to be a priest and I explained to Father Monroe my reasonings and well they let me go but they still gave me the rights to perform an exorcism. I thought about coming back but I just didn't. I started working with my grandfather again but it wasn't the same he just wasn't himself after Gramma died. It was then that I started falling into my old habits. And it got bad but I didn't let anyone know it. And then I got a call from Lin about the team getting back together. And to tell you the truth I wasn't going to come. But Rosi talked me into it. I was scared you guys would hate me. I left without even saying goodbye. I never really had friends so I didn't really know how to. And then I got here and I got to see all of you guys again. And I actually felt like myself again. And I got to know you better and I got to meet Kovu! And I've never felt so happy. And then this happened and I couldn't control my powers. I was pulled into a different plane and I saw my brother and Mai and Gene showed up. The last few days have been hell. I've had to re watch my past and Mai was forced to as well." He said clenching his fists
I just hugged him. I had tears streaming down my face.
"Masako? What's wrong? Hey wha why are you crying?" John asked slightly panicked attempting to wipe my tears away while in my death grip of a hug.
"I'm crying because you've been through a lot and yet you still smile and I just I'm happy that your here with me. And I just to to think that there was a time when you tried to...to die. I wouldn't have been able to meet you and get to know you it  just it just makes me sad ya know and....and I'm just if I never met you I would have missed out on so much. You're the best person I've ever met and I've been able to learn more and more about you and you're honestly just amazing. You make others happy and you're loved. There are people that love you John." I said trying to wipe my tears

"I..." I started to say but I stopped myself
"What?" John asked me
"Nothing. Let's just get some sleep John. I don't feel good." I said getting up and going to the other couch that was across from Ms. Nite's.
"Goodnight Masako." John mumbled
"Goodnight John. I love you."  I said quietly
"I love you too Masako." John said smiling

••••••••about 10 minutes later••••••••••••••

"Masako?"
"Yes John?"
"When I get out of this stupid hospital and before the case if..if we're still going on the case do you think we could um go and have lunch and then maybe watch a movie or something? You know if you want to." John said awkwardly
"Yes I would love that John." I told him truthfully
"Really!?" He exclaimed
"Yes. Now go to sleep." I said giggling
"Ok g'dnight Masa."

* I hope you enjoyed this chapter! The song was just to perfect not to add on to this chapter another song that would match this story

I feel like both these songs express how John was feeling and since this was all Masako's POV I feel like we need a lil bit of John's POV in it.
I hope you enjoyed I'm starting the next chapter now
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And I also wanted to thank akaiseirei  for reading this story since the beginning I really appreciate it. So thank you. (And btw akaiseirei has some good stories I highly recommend)
~tayterchip 😘✨