Patience

PROLOGUE •Gabe•

"Gabe you need to read the letter!" Tori screamed as she began to slip off the edge.

"Tori!" I screamed reaching over to grab her hand. But it was too late she had already fallen overboard the ship. "TORI!" I yelled once again "What letter are you talking about? Please come back!"

Tori gave me one last look as she struggled to fight off the rough waves of the water "The one from my funeral." That was when the ocean opened up and ate her up, killing her in the process.

Pain filled my body as I looked overboard the ship "Come back! Come back please!" I screamed but it was no use, she was gone. She had left me all over again.

"Yo Gabe wake up!" Jason yelled into my ear as I shot up out of my bed panting for air.

Carter sat up straighter on his bed as he stared at me with a strange expression on his face. I sighed ruffling my sweaty hair from my face. That's twice this week that I've had this dream, the other ones either involve just my dad or both Tori and him.

I don't understand what they all mean. In the dreams they all seem to be telling me the same thing-open the letter-but I can't bring myself to do it. In some strange and sick way these dreams are the only things keeping me from losing my mind.

I can't bring myself to think about Tori or my dad anymore without falling apart on the inside. "Hey! You there!" Jason yelled into my face.

I sighed rolling my eyes as I just looked up at him waiting for him to explain whatever it is he wanted to explain. Jason Myers was mine and Carter's roommate here at university. It was slightly awkward at first when we met Jason since he was basically Carter before he started dating Faith.

Jason brought girls back to our dorm every night but after two months of living with him you simply just learn to plug in your earphones and listen to your music all the way to drown out the sounds.

I had separate classes from Carter, Faith and Jason because I had gotten the art scholarship so I barely ever see them, not that it really mattered I didn't really hang outside of my room much.

"We said that we were going to be heading down to the café downstairs, you want to come?" Carter asked, I just gave him a small shake of my head before both him and Jason got up to leave.

As soon as Jason was out the door Carter turned to me with a concerned look "Gabe you sure you don't-"

"I'm sure." I mumbled "I'll be fine. I have lots of work to do anyways, I've got this painting due Monday." I lied.

Carter just sighed before he nodded leaving the room. As soon as the door was closed I laid back down in my bed as I tried to rack my brain around this dream again. Why did they keep telling me to open the letter?

It was just Tori giving me an explanation on why she pushed us all away I was sure of it. Carter and Faith had received a letter too and both of their letters had said the same thing. Why would mine be any different?

Ever since Tori's funeral I had promised myself that I wouldn't think about it but it was just too damn hard not to sometimes. In moments like these I realize just how much people don't realize what they've got until it's gone.

I can't touch Tori again.

I can't see Tori again.

I can't hold Tori again.

I can't kiss Tori again.

I can't tell Tori I love her again.

I'll never get to do any of those things ever again. There has been a lot of things in my life that I have wanted to do but I would give up all of those dreams if it would give me one more chance with Tori, just one.

When my father died it was one of the hardest things to go through ever and now Tori is gone. With my father I have had years to heal and get over it because I knew when being in the military you have to kind of prepare yourself for that one phone call.

With Tori it was different because she had pushed us away, so much that we knew nothing. I hadn't even had know that she had been in the hospital a month before she died.

I soon felt myself pull out the envelope Tori's lawyer had given me at the funeral. I sighed deeply as I just stared at it; I always seemed to find myself doing this same process after a dream.

Just as I felt myself wanting to open it I shoved it away back under my bed where I knew no one would find it.

I could never open that letter, no matter how much I want to.

It will cause me too much pain, I'm not ready to let go of Tori yet. Not now, maybe not ever.

This letter was never going to be opened, ever.

~This has been the prologue!!!! Couldn't post the trailer tonight so i'll do it tomorrow! I'll post the link tomorrow so you can watch it! Thank you guys, i hope you liked the prologue! Gabe on the side!~Sam~