Patience

Chapter 9 •Evie's POV•

Chapter 9 •Evie's POV•

"It starts from when I was a junior in high school. It was supposed to be a fun year for me, I mean a few seniors noticed me, I was higher up on the food chain so that meant I would get invited to great parties and the grade nines and tens looked up to me in a way." I sighed looking down while playing with my fingers.

I was only at the beginning, I didn't even start to get into it yet I was already freaking out and shaking in my own skin. "It's okay." Gabe mumbled quietly "You can trust me."

I looked up and him a forced out a small smile. "I was happy at school, I always had to be. I was popular and I didn't want anyone to start rumors about me so I always had to be happy. Rebecca was the only one who knew what was really going on with me. She's been the greatest friend anyone could ever have, I'm glad I have her."

Gabe looked down as he sighed. "What's wrong?" I asked him. Gabe looked over at me before he looked back down. "It's just you appreciate your friend so much. It makes me realize just how much I've been neglecting my two friends Carter and Faith since Tori died."

"I was the same way." I whispered. He looked over at me in a confused state while I just sighed. "My brother was in the army, he joined as soon as he turned eighteen. It brought a lot of conflict into our family. My mom wanted him to stay while my father thought that he should go to serve his country. My dad thought that being in the army was this great honor, my mother and I couldn't disagree more."

"Did he die in the army?" Gabe asked me cautiously.

"I wish." I mumbled "It would have been better then what really happened."

Gabe reached out and grabbed my hand the same way I had with him. He held onto it and stared up at me "What really happened Evie?"

"He committed suicide." I whispered.

"Why?" He whispered back.

I pulled my hand away from his and began to wipe my eyes. The tears had started to fall from my eyes and I knew it was only going to get worse. "My brother, his name was Nicholas, everyone called him Nick; he came home from the army because he was injured. He was shot in the leg and his leg got infected. It was cut off because it was too infected and it was really hard on my brother. Nick couldn't go back into the army. He was depressed because of all of the people he had saw die out there on the field, his friends; losing his leg just added more depression. Also my parents had decided to get a divorce; with Nick leaving they were fighting constantly. It was horrible. When Nick came back my parents couldn't hold the news back, I wish they did because it only made Nick hate himself even more. It gave him another reason to want to die, he overdosed and it killed him."

Tears were streaming down my cheeks now. "After Nick died I completely shut myself off from everyone just like you said. I didn't want to let anyone in not even Rebecca. She had tried so hard to get me to open up but I only continued to shut her out but she never gave up on me." I smiled slightly "Rebecca had gotten so fed up with the way I was acting that she threatened to walk out on me and never speak to me again."

I chuckled through my tears "She was so serious, I couldn't lose my best friend not after I had lost my brother and my parents. I didn't lose my parents physically but mentally I could tell they were gone. So I did what I had to do, I told Rebecca that I needed her and she hugged me while I basically cried everything out. All my pain, my suffering and my anger."

I looked over at Gabe and forced out a smile "Gabe I know you must feel alone right now, like nobody knows how you feel and that may be true but there are people who can understand what loss feels like. I'm sorry you lost Tori; I really am but do not shut people out. Those people are the ones to save you from the darkness."