My Dirty Little Secret

-|Secret One: Ciel Phantomhive|-

Ciel Phantomhive, yes, every individual has heard of this name before. He is the son of Vincent Phantomhive, the founder of The Funtom Company, or at least, he was . Now he is just the son of a father without an ounce of money left in his bank account. Vincent has nothing , only a giant house left behind by his ex-wife. She left it out of pity, and concern for her self image. She didn't want her child to be homeless, the media wouldn't take that too well. So she made it seem as if she cared by not taking everything in the divorce, (however, you and I both know that she didn't care a single ounce, she never did, I'm afraid).

Ciel remembers the days off in the distant past. The days when his father and mother and himself happily ate around the dinner table with marvelous food, clothes, and insane amounts of money. Price was but a number that none of them had to care about. But now, sadly, everything was too expensive. Vincent and Ciel could barely afford the clothes on their backs, let alone a meal every night. Perhaps the reason that Ciel couldn't grow another inch was because of the lack of food he had to eat...but things like this barely mattered to him anymore. Ciel just had to keep moving on with his life. He just had to take one day at a time, until the days stopped and he died. That's the type of life he lived. That's the only thing he could do to manage all the stress. Everything was too much for him to bear, especially the look on his father's face every night as he walked through the doors to the mansion. The simple smile that hid his overflowing sorrow. Ciel wished he could do something to help, but nothing ever seemed to work.

Despite the lack of money in Vincent's pockets, Ciel still managed to get into one of the most expensive private high schools in the world. Yes, that's right, the world . He was allowed to do this because the principal just so happened to be his aunt. She took pity on him and offered him a full-ride scholarship. Dorms, lunches, books, and uniform were all included. But rather than leave his father alone, he decided to decline the offer of the dorm and to commute everyday on foot. They didn't live very far, so he didn't feel the need to move in. Why should he be embarrassed of what happened? Why should he hide from the truth? It wasn't his fault this situation was thrust upon them...his aunt tried to give him a new start, but he refused because he loved his father too much.

People used to mock him the first couple of years, saying that he was just there because of his aunt. In truth, he was there because of his aunt, so he never was discouraged by this. After he had passed the standardized testing at the top of his class for the past three years in a row, his classmates began to recognize him for his intellect, instead of his past. They began to remember the grandeur of the company that had fallen, instead of the way that it had been destroyed.

The Funtom Company had not fallen for reasons like bad product, instead it had been forced to close because Rachel Phantomhive, the mother of Ciel, had divorced Vincent. She left him for someone else entirely and during that dreadful divorce, she took all of the profits and the company. Rachel closed the business, feeling no need for it after all of the riches she had stolen, and left her ex-husband to live out his days without a dime. Rachel offered to take Ciel with her, but on one condition. This said condition was something Ciel was infuriated by. He would rather live his life with someone that cared about him than to live a lie in the house of the richest woman alive, (rich by treachery, I might add).

This condition was that Ciel would never mention his father to her. That he would forget Vincent even was his father. That he would accept his step-father as his own. This was something Ciel could never do. He loved his father, he did, and he could not pretend that he liked whomever Rachel had runaway with. That was stupid, terrible,inhumane . After what she did to Vincent, how could anyone even love her? How could Vincent even forgive her? But Ciel knew that Vincent didn't hate her for it. He was too good a man to do something like that. Vincent was a god in Ciel's eyes, the most perfect person anyone could ever aspire to be.

So, Ciel decided to hate Rachel for him. Ciel had never liked her much anyway. She would be the one to get mad at him over trivial things. She would take him to a closet and beat him with a belt, for no reason at all on some days. Vincent, who knew little of this, because it happened while he was at work, could do nothing to protect him. In fact, when Vincent found out of what Rachel had been doing, Ciel felt that had been the beginnings of the divorce. Ciel felt guilty for running into Vincent's arms when he came home, he should have at least put on long sleeves...for if he had endured, his father would not have suffered such a tragic fate. But like Vincent, who does not hate Rachel, he cannot blame Ciel. Instead of cursing the birth of this child, he praises him for everything that he does. They have grown closer over these past few years than they ever would have had Vincent stayed with Rachel. Of course, it is small things like this that Vincent mentions over and over again, in hopes that Ciel might forget his hatred for Rachel.

It is perhaps because of the terrible mother that Ciel was given, that he had grown wary of women in general. Every time he had a female teacher, or a classmate even, his hairs stuck up on the back of his neck and he lost some of his concentration. He managed to get over this, ever so slightly, so that now he can hold a conversation with some of his female friends, but he still prefers males over females. It is perhaps because of this, that Ciel wasn't so shocked when he realized that he didn't feel anything for girls. Having had the most horrific turn-off given to him by his own mother, he has noticed that he is indeed, a homosexual.

Even though he realized this, he has never actually had a crush on anyone before. Ciel just noticed, one day, that he thought of fellow males as attractive, just as his male friends thought of females as attractive. Some people were much more handsome than others, some more sexy, and so he made a mental note, just like that, because he could not prove his theory to be true, he hasn't come out to his father, or to anyone else for that matter. It might turn out that it is not the case, that he might find that one special girl who changes his life forever. But chances of that are very slim...since at the moment, he feels all females will betray him like his mother had betrayed his father and himself. And, this is a sebaciel fanfiction so there is no possible hope of a female changing his life in a romantic sense. Unless, that is, Sebastian happened to get a sex change.

Ciel is not the only intelligent one on a special full-ride scholarship at Black Hearts Academy. There are a total of four special cases (including himself) at this school. They have all gotten very close in the past three years due to their unique situations. Although two of them are females, Ciel does not treat them the same as he would other girls since he has gotten to know them so well.

The first is Alois Trancy, the other boy in the group of four. He is from a high-class family, like Ciel would have been had the Phantomhives stayed strong. He is a rather strange individual and doesn't seem to take school as seriously as the rest of them do. Alois is always trying to get Ciel into trouble, which is rather annoying. Although Alois doesn't necessarily need the scholarship, and he can still go to the school if he doesn't comply to the rules of it, Ciel cannot afford such a thing. And so, Ciel is often very annoyed by this blonde haired boy who holds no respect for his education.

The second is Lisa Heartworthy, like Ciel, she is a hard-working student. Lisa is also a worry-wart and will always follow the rules to the T. Her hair is long and silvery-blonde and she has very red eyes. It is a strange appearance but who is Ciel to judge? He has one purple eye and one blue eye so there isn't much he can say about her when he himself has a weird appearance. Because of his purple eye he wears an eye-patch to avoid questions (but in the end it often causes people to ask more questions). As to how he got this purple eye, it was caused by his mother on one of her bad days. He doesn't remember much except that she was holding some sort of liquid and it caused his eye to change color. It was an incredibly painful experience and that is all he can recall.

The final student is Drecta Fredricka, not much can be said about her except for the fact that her hair almost always looks disheveled. Her hair is raven black and covers have of her face entirely to hide some horrid scars. When asked how she got these marks, she replies with a different answer each time. People have given up asking about them and they each choose the answer they find most interesting to suit their needs.

Ciel does not hate his life, even though he finds it to be very disinteresting at times. But this will soon change, when he meets the school's infamous Sebastian Michaelis...

Will Ciel be able to survive such an encounter?

One can only hope...