My Dirty Little Secret

Secret Seventy-Five: It Is What It Is

Ciel really didn't want to go back to school, especially since his father hadn't returned yet. Would he return? If he didn't Ciel was sure to go mad. But he had other things to worry about at the moment, like the fact that Sebastian was oozing pure bloodlust. It was different from the anger he had felt radiate from Vincent, because with his father, Ciel wasn't the one he was mad at. With Sebastian, Ciel felt for sure that he was the target for this anger.

During the time that Ciel was 'kidnapped' so to speak, Sebastian had stayed at the manor. When he returned the night that The Undertaker disappeared as well, to find it completely in shambles, he knew for certain something was wrong. Izaya wouldn't tell him a thing, either because he didn't know, or because he was an asshat. Either way, Sebastian was furious with the way things had turned out and Ciel didn't know how to fix it.

When Train had taken him home that night, Sebastian hadn't even said a word. It was like he was trying very hard not to let any of his anger show, but over the next few days Ciel was growing more and more uneasy around him. Sebastian was having a harder time  hiding his frustration and Ciel was noticing.

Now it was the day he would return to school. The principal had apparently told everyone that Ciel and his father had gone on a long vacation, that way they wouldn't worry about him. Although, that would also mean that everyone would ask about how it was and why his father wasn't back yet. Ciel would have to flawlessly come up with some stupid lies to keep this story under control.

One thing he knew for sure, was that Alois would ask why he didn't take Sebastian with him or why The Undertaker wasn't with them at first either. Alois would always ask nosy questions similar to that, Ciel hated it, because he couldn't hide the truth for long.

"CIIIIIIEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!" Alois called running towards the boy. Running wasn't aloud in the hallways, Ciel sighed, there was no stopping Alois. No matter what the teachers told him, he'd always break the rules as if he thought they were meant to be broken.

The blonde ran towards him, arms outstretched. The only thing that Ciel could do was brace for impact. Alois jumped and landed on his target, the two fell to the floor with Lisa and Drecta leaning over them. A touching reunion, you might think.

"I can't believe you just left like that without warning! You should have told us!" Alois complained. Ciel sighed, told him what? That he was kidnapped by his mother and locked away in this weird form of imprisonment? That his memories were altered and that he didn't even remember Alois or any of his friends existed? Ciel sighed again.

"Are you going to get off of me?" he questioned. The blonde hugged Ciel tighter, refusing to comply with his wishes.

"Nope," he grinned, "I figured the only way to get Sebastian to actually talk to you was to get him jealous," Alois whispered into Ciel's ear. Ciel blushed lightly but frowned. Such means wouldn't work, Alois should know that, or would they? Ciel was a bit interested but Sebastian was already angry enough with him. Why would he want to just infuriate him more? The guy would go ballistic...

"Alois," Drecta warned, "you might want to stop flirting with Ciel so out in the open like that..."

"Ehhhh? But why?" Alois pouted, puffing out his cheeks. He looked up at Drecta and in he corner of his eye he saw it...that dark aura radiating from the other end of the hallway.

"Oh hell," Alois turned to look at the shape, that guy was a human, right? There was no way this was actually some demon summoned from the depths of the earth just to drag Alois Trancy down, right? 

The figure began to walk towards the four, cracking his knuckles and then his neck he smiled down at Alois. The blonde promptly removed himself from Ciel and began to beg for his life by hugging the demon's legs.

"I didn't mean it! I swear! I promise I'll never do it in front of you again! Just please," a tear slid down Alois's cheek for dramatic effect, "tell my hubbies I love them," Alois closed his eyes and accepted the punishment awaiting him.

Surprisingly, the punishment came from elsewhere, "don't touch my boyfriend you twat!" Ciel slapped Alois and crossed his arms. The blonde pouted more and sat on the floor looking down. He brought a hand to his face.

"You didn't have to hit me," Alois pet his face to try and stop the pain, even a bit.

"You deserve it," Ciel huffed, "first you run towards me like the scoundrel that you are and then you jump and land on me! Do you realize how dirty I am now because of you?" Ciel pointed to his uniform in disgust.

"Aw, baby don't be like that," Alois tried to hug Ciel's legs this time but Sebastian gave him a good glare and the boy stopped in his tracks.

"I swear," Alois huffed, "it is like you're his loyal guard-dog."

Sebastian rolled his eyes and grabbed Ciel's hand, dragging him off, "wait!" Ciel called out to him, "where are we going?" 

The destination didn't matter, Sebastian just wanted to get away from them, so the two rushed into the boy's bathroom and hid in a stall. Because why not? No one bothers anyone in the bathroom.

"Was it something I said?" Alois asked Lisa and Drecta while watching the two go on their way. The two girls just shook their heads disapprovingly, did Alois ever learn?

"Sebastian! What is the meaning of this?!" Ciel stomped his foot demanding answers. It was his first day back at Black Hearts Academy, he didn't have the luxury to skip classes.

The raven-head slammed his hand next to Ciel's head and stared into his uncovered eye. Ciel sweat-dropped, this wasn't exactly the best way to start up a conversation between the two, considering Ciel had been avoiding Sebastian till this point. Ciel crossed his arms and tried to remain deadpanned but that was proving difficult. Sebastian was scary when angry...

The silence between them was unbearable, neither one of the two knew what to say. Neither one knew how to fix it. 

"You're angry, that much is clear," Ciel spoke softly, breaking the silence, "but what am I supposed to do? I can't apologize for being kidnapped...it isn't like I wanted to drop off the face of the earth! If I wanted that...I would have taken you with me!" 

Sebastian rested his head on Ciel's shoulder, to hide his face, "in my mind I know, I shouldn't be mad at you, I shouldn't be so frustrated. I know that you were taken against your will, that they did something to your memories, that you forgot who I was entirely. You've told me all of that, I know it...but even though my brain understands I can't stop myself from feeling like this," Ciel could feel his uniform moisten, tears? Was Sebastian crying? 

"I'm glad that you're okay but..." Ciel nodded to those words and started patting Sebastian's head.

"It's okay..." Ciel said.

"It's not okay!" Sebastian raised his voice, Ciel flinched, "I should have been with you the day they took you! I walk with you home and stay with you everyday but that day I didn't. I could have stopped them...I could have saved you! Don't tell me it's okay, that it isn't my fault!"

"No one can predict the future," Ciel said, continuing to run his hand through Sebastian's hair, "no one can change the past either."

"It's not okay..." Sebastian muttered.

"No," Ciel wrapped his arms around Sebastian, giving him a good hug, "but it is what it is."

A/N: *causally uses a Sherlock scene*

*casually ignores the fact that Vincent is still burning in a building somewhere*

*causally hands you a crappy chappy to read*

*laughs nervously and hides in a basement*