Schizoaffective | Luna (AustinFFA)

{19. I May Look Happy }

I may look happy, but honestly dear,
the only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear.

"Robyn..." Austin choked out.

I looked at him. His black beanie was covered in snow. He just got back from shopping with his parents for their annual New Year's party. "Yeah?" I asked, putting myself in his arms.

"I- I...I don't know how to tell you this..."

"Just....let it out...." I said and sat on the bed, patting the place next to me. He took a deep breath before he sat down, the bed sinking under his weight. 

"I...I'm leaving...only for a while. Couple of months..." he started

"What...?"

"A work opportunity came up...I can work with LeafyIsHere"

"Oh...that's great" I say, trying to force a smile. I knew that this was  a dream come true for Austin. Leafy was big and this could really boost his channel.

"So, you're okay with this?" He asked.

"Yeah" I lie. A smile flashes across his face.

"Great. Well I have to go help my mom set up" He says, kissing me, and leaves.

As soon as I hear the door close that's when I break down. I knew that something was wrong...and I knew that I would never be happy. Just when I thought everything was fine...it all came crashing down.