Clockwork Angel (IM5 Colton Fanfiction)

Chapter 25: Just Too Late...

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-Dalton-

The three repeated knock placed upon my door suggested that my mom was directly on the other side. "Dalton? Sweetie, some old friends want to take you out to lunch; they say it's been awhile." I snarled angrily at the door, and muffled into the pillow, I shouted back, "It hasn't been that long at all. Why can't you just accept that I'm fine?"

"Dalton," my mom sighed in front of the door, "you aren't fine. I know breakups are tough, and I know that deaths are the hardest, but it's been two freaking months. You have a life, and Cole would want you to live and be happy and not spend all of your precious days mourning over him. You and I both know that's true. Please, your friends are waiting downstairs. They are dying to see you smile again."

I groaned and got up and out of the bed. Was Cole's death really two months ago? Right after I learned that Cole had passed during the fire, I ran away from everyone. I had never cried and screamed so hard. Ever. Ever. Ever. I felt a sadness that had never been that strong ever. It was a depression that ate you, inside and out, and suffocated your lungs so that no fresh air can enter you. I had lost my best friend, my band mate, my crush, my boyfriend... I had lost my everything. It was all because my brain had been too STUPID and I had to forget EVERYTHING.

Cole had tried so hard to make things right, and his death was utterly my fault. Everyone says that it was the driver's fault, and that driver deliberately ran over Cole. That driver was Eben. He was the one who broke my brain, and the person who killed Cole. At his funeral, the police found enough evidence that it was him (thanks DNA prints and security cameras) and he said that it was a complete accident.

But I knew the truth. Right before I ran to my room, before I shut the world out and gave up, I ran past Cass, who was whispering to Eben. "Look, I ruined Colton for you. Now, it's time for you to pay me back," Eben hissed to Cass. "Never. You'll never catch me. I'm never helping you," she snarled back, getting up and running away.

Eben sat there dumbfounded, kind of like how I felt as I put on clean clothes and tried to style my hair but broke down in tears because my hair had folded into a position that Cole always wore. I tried to do eyeliner, but my hands were shaking too much and too many salty tears were falling down from my face. I hadn't looked in a mirror in months, but I looked like a freaking hurricane. My eyes were bright red, purple circles surrounded eyes, and I was skinnier than a stick. A dumb, ugly, stupid looking stick. My eyes didn't shine once bit, my hair was all over the place, and I was a deadly shade of pale. After I moaned and left the bathroom, I walked out of my room (the bathroom and bedroom were connected by one door) for the first time in months. As I trudged down the stairs, my mom smiled brightly at me. "It's nice to see and hear you without a door," she whispered softly, pulling me into a hug. I sobbed into her shoulder, feeling dead and weak and worthless.

I walked outside, and the bright lights blinded my eyes and the birds chirping stung my ears. It smelt like nature and the world was a lot more colorful than flashes of flames. I whimpered, wanting to run back into darkness, but I also knew that this was the right thing to do: wherever Cole was, I knew that he wanted me to go out.

Suddenly, my friends appeared. "Gu-guys," I squeaked, and Will, Dana, and Gabe all ran up to me, smiling. "We missed you, Dal," Dana said, and all four of us bro hugged. When I hugged Will, however, I started sobbing insanely. "Yo-you were right. I-I wa-was in lov-love... Why didn't I believe you!" I whelped, crying helplessly into his arms. Will had tried to explain the story when my brain was lost, but I wouldn't let him speak. I had ignored him and shut him out without him saying a thing, just because of how much belief I had in a lying trash bag. Cass, that wonderful piece of...

"Dalton, let's do something fun!" Will piped, wiping away my tears, but I noted that his hands were shaking and tears lightly fell from his eyes. My best friends were missing him as well. I sighed and whispered, "Oka-okay we can do fun things." Gabe patted his back supportively. "We will make you feel better," he promised.

The day was the best day I had in months, maybe even in years. We went to Venice Beach and just walked around. We talked about life cool song ideas and how strange the people were here. We went into gift shops and made stupid outfits with the clothes. We tried the strange food and had an epic dance party with the music that was blasted. We headed over to the amusement park and went on all of the rides and played arcade games. I had forgotten about my worries and my mistakes and just focused on having a good time with my buddies. But, whenever something reminded me of Cole, I would feel myself tear and shake, getting ready to run. Will would automatically notice, and he would give me a supporting arm and whisper, "Cole would be so proud of you for having a good time." He was right; Will always seemed to be right.

After an extremely fun day, we all went out to get food. I hadn't eaten good food in months; my mom pushed through my door crappy food as an attempt to get me to come out. But it didn't work; nothing did. Now, here I was, smiling with my huge Chipotle burrito and having a good freakin time. I hadn't felt this happy in months, and I felt loved, accepted, and genuinely pleased.

After food, we all piled into the car to drive back to my house for a fun movie night. Just then, the park where so many things had occurred pulled into view. Memories flashed through my eyes faster than speed racer cars, and I started to twitch, and sadness filled me. Shockingly, I really wanted to go in that park and take it all in. I used to love that park; Cole and I did a lot in that park.

Cole...

As if Will could read my mind, he then suggested, "Do you guys want to go and see what is happening in the park? I mean, we don't have too..." I interrupted Will, nodding my head and replying, "Let's go. I mean, I really like that idea." The guys looked at each other with nerves, and I just assumed that they thought that I was going to go insane by entering the park.

"C'mon, it'll be fun!" I tried to squeal happily, but felt something holding me back. As we parked the car and entered the area, I tried my hardest not to think. I squeezed my eyes and breathed in and out, but nothing was stopping the memories roaring through my brain. Tears splattered down my face as we passed THAT tree, THAT bench, THAT street...

Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to the nearest bench and shoved my head into my hands, internally screaming and missing Cole more than ever. I passed the waters where I jumped, and Cole was the one who saved me. Cole made me feel less empty, like I had a purpose... He loved me and cared about me. He risked his life for me. He... He died for me. The emptiness in my heart burned to hell, and I couldn't stop my screaming. I fell off the bench, and Will came around and held me, trying to calm me down and telling me that everything will be okay.

"Hey, there's this person out there who cares, and we think that you two should really date. This person will make you feel so much better and will care about you... Dalton, you really need someone to love in love in your life," Will explained to me once I calmed down. I could only nod my head, but my throat turned drier than cotton. "No-no one can replace him, I know," Will squealed. He then looked forward and winked to the person standing in the distance.

As i strained my eyes to see who my blind date was,

A voice said sweetly, "Who can replace me?"

That voice had the right amount of sweet. It sounded sexy and sweet and lovable. It sounded so familiar and from a dream...

No, it couldn't be.

Yes, yes it was.

It was Cole Pendery.