Shadows- Austin Mahone Fanfiction

Chapter Eight

AUSTINS NEW SINGLE IS OUT NEXT WEEK OMFG. AND THE LIVESTREAM OMG ROCCO LET AUSTIN DO A GRIND ON ME PLS.

I felt sick. Austin’s words hammered through my brain “My Mom’s not home. So you can scream as loud as you want”. I backed away from him knowing what he was implying and I wasn’t ready for this. A deep chuckle erupted from his chest as he moved forward.

His hands made their way to my sides causing me to jump back slightly. “Don’t be scared, I won’t hurt you if you’re good” he whispered in my ear. A phrase he probably meant to sound seductive but to me it was disgusting. I squeezed my eyes shut in fear as he moved his hands up and down.

I knew he could sense my fear, he was feeding off it. “Please” I begged. “Please don’t make me do this” I could feel my eyes beginning to sting as tears threatened to fall. Before I could stop myself, one by one the tears fell. Staining my cheeks.

 I looked to the floor trying to hide them. “Are you crying?” he asked me, his tone had changed completely.  I merely shook my head keeping my gaze towards the ground. He removed one hand from my waist and carefully tilted my face upwards.  “Please don’t cry” his facial expression read worried. I couldn’t quite comprehend how one minute he was a disgusting horny pig to being the sweet guy I once knew.

Our eyes locked and they remained that way for what seemed like forever before I looked away. I couldn’t look at him any longer. “Rebekah, please don’t cry” he begged me. I pushed him away from me “Let me go Austin” I said moving past him making my way towards the door. Just as I went to open the door his warm hand wrapped around my elbow swinging me around. “I can’t” he sighed. “It’s not safe anymore”.

“What do you mean it’s not safe anymore” I shouted. Tears were pouring from my eyes from frustration and fear. “They know what you saw, the guys” he began to shout back. “They aren’t afraid to hurt you. They’ll kill you if they have too.” His voice was getting louder. “If I don’t at least pretend I fucked you and screwed you over, they will.” I gulped, was he trying to save me?

“And if they get you, Rebekah...they’ll kill you straight away...I can’t let that happen” he sighed. “Why? Why would you care?” I screamed. “I’m just a piece of dirt to you”. I was beyond upset now and there was no stopping me. My anger was fuming and I felt like punching him.

“Because I like you” he screamed back. The words caught me off guard. I was stunned. I was unable to form words. “I always have” he sighed as he went towards his bed. He sat down on the edge and placed his head in his hands. “I let myself go and look where it’s gotten me” he said looking up at me. I moved towards him and sat down beside him.

“I used to be good, get good grades, I was popular” he said laughing slightly. “But now I’m in this big mess, my mom and I barely talk, my friends are only my friends for the drugs” he sighed. “I’ve screwed so many girls and you don’t know how bad that makes me feel Rebekah” he looked me straight in the eyes.

“I didn’t know Austin, I’m sorry” I was utterly speechless at this stage. “It wasn’t your fault, it’s my own. I really took Mema’s death bad but it didn’t need to be this way” he sighed.

I placed my hand on his back “You can change Austin, you can get out of this. You can get back to your old self” I reassured him. “But that’s the problem, I can’t they’ll kill me” he was frustrated now. “Alex isn’t like any of them you know, he only done this so he wouldn’t lose me, it’s all my fault I got him into this” he was pacing the room now. I jumped backwards when he punched the wall in anger. “Austin”. I got up from the bed and made my way towards him.

He turned to face me, looking in his eyes I could almost see all the pain he had faced and inflicted. “I didn’t want to kill him” his voice was cracking, almost as if he might cry. “Sssh” I said placing my finger on his lips. I placed my arms around his neck and pulled him into a hug.

I felt his warm arms wrap tightly around my torso. I felt secure in his arms even after all he had put me through. Seeing the real him again made me feel safe, something I hadn’t felt in a while. I buried my face in the crook of his neck as a small smile formed on my lips.

As I pulled away, my gaze locked with his again. Before I knew it his warm lips were on mine. His grip around my waist tightened as he pulled me closer. Our lips moved in sync and they fit together almost like two matching pieces of a jigsaw. Austin began to walk towards the bed, not breaking the kiss he lay me down gently climbing on top of me.

His tongue ran across my bottom lip and I granted him entry. His warm hands moved to my waist. His tongue began to explore my mouth. I let him take control as this was not only my first make out but my first kiss. I’m not going to lie I was terrified he would think I’m a bad kisser.

The kiss soon deepened further and I felt Austin’s warm hands move slightly downwards towards the hemline of my dress. His fingers played with the hem before moving slightly under my dress. I pushed Austin away “Austin, I can’t” I sighed. He smiled down at me “I get it, first time jitters” he chuckled getting up off me. He scratched the back of his neck and then I seen something I hadn’t seen in a long time. Austin smiled. Not his usual cocky smirk or sarcastic grin, but his cute cheeky smile that I fell for once upon a time.

His smile could light up an entire room, he just didn’t notice. And seeing him smile made me smile. We looked at each other smiling and broke into hysterical laughter. We used to laugh at nothing all the time back in 8th Grade and I missed that.

The laughter soon died down into an almost comfortable silence. The silence was soon interrupted by my very distinctive ringtone “Don’t tell me I’m a Heartbreaker. Cause girl my hearts breaking” I felt my cheeks redden as I pulled my phone from its hiding place...my bra.  

Austin chuckled at me as I checked the caller ID. It was Emilie. “Shit” I muttered under my breath before sliding across the answer button. I put the phone to my ear preparing myself for the lecture. “Bekah where the hell are you?” Emilie yelled from the other end of the line. “Emilie, hey. About that...eh it’s a long story” I couldn’t lie to her and I couldn’t tell her the truth, I’d just have to make do with the old ‘it’s a long story, I’ll tell you later’ act. “This better be good, where are you. I’ll come get you” she said. I could hear her preparing.

“It’s ok, I’m at an old friend’s house. I’ll be back at Chad’s in the morning. I’ll meet you then and we can head home” I was just hoping this would work. “Alright” her tone sounded quite sceptical but she seemed to be going along with it. “Text me when you’re near and I’ll see you in the morning” she said. “Perfect, Goodnight” I said a wave of relief washing over me. “Goodnight” and with that the line went dead.

I looked up to Austin who was chuckling to himself. “What is she your mother?” he asked sarcastically. Instead of debating with him I just punched his arm. His expression soon changed to a revengeful one.

“You’re gonna pay for that”. I giggled to myself. Austin jumped on me and began to tickle me causing me to break into hysterical laughter. “Austin, Aus-tin, AUSTIN” by now I could barely breath I was laughing so hard. Austin was laughing with me and he eventually stopped. He collapsed down beside me.

His arm snaked around my waist as he pulled me closer. “You tired” he asked. I just nodded me head. He pulled the duvet up around our bodies. I cuddled into him and began to feel my eyelids get heavy before I drifted into a carefree sleep.