Can't Help Fallin' For You ~CaptainSwan Fanfiction

Chapter 11: Kicked Out.

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Emma's P.O.V:

I will destroy your happiness... if it is the last thing I do.

I sit up sweating in my bed, breathing heavily. What a dream. It seemed so real... I wouldn't have known the difference if it was actually happening. Shaking off the fear, I get out of bed and head downstairs for a cold glass of water.

Jeeze Emma it was just a dream, get over it, I tell myself.

I gulp down the water and with a clear head, I turn to go back to my room.

Only I don't walk into my room.

I walk straight into Killian.

"Oh! I'm so sorry I was just getting water and I was about to go back-" I say as he catches me.

"It's fine love," he says with a smirk.

Only then do I realize that I'm still wrapped in his arms. And I really don't want him to let go. I find myself staring up into his eyes, leaning in closer. Feeling things I haven't felt since... well since Neal. And those thoughts, those thoughts of Neal, are what bring me back to reality. What am I thinking?! I can't let myself be vulnerable, it will all just collapse in the end. I'm doing myself a favor by keeping my distance... at least I think I am...

Our lips touch and it's the most wonderful feeling I've felt in a long long time. But what am I doing? Do I really want this? Am I ready?! No... no I can't do this. I'm about to pull away... but Killian does first.

"I'm sorry love... I- I can't do this."

"Right... me- me neither I should- I'm gonna- I'm just gonna go back to bed now. Good night."

"Emma..." he calls after me. But I ignore him and rush up the stairs.

Killian's P.O.V:

She kissed me... well actually I guess we both kissed each other. But this can't happen. I promised Milah I would avenge her. That I would stay loyal. But with Emma around it's getting harder and harder to keep that promise. I can't do this to Milah. I owe it to her after what the crocodile did to stay loyal and I need to do whatever it takes to own up to that.

The next morning, Kilian's P.O.V:

Come on Killian, this is the day you give her the potion... and the day you tell her. I think to myself.

"Emma!" I call from the bottom of the stairs.

"What!" she shouts from the shower. I laugh to myself but quickly gain my composure, scolding myself for falling for her.

"Hurry up already breakfast is getting cold!"

"What did you make???"

"Guess!" I shout.

"UUUUH I DON'T KNOW THAT'S WHY I ASKED!"

"You'll see just get down here!"

"Yeah yeah whatever," she says laughing.

I wait five minutes, then ten. What the bloody hell takes her so long?! Women.

"UUUH KILLIAN?"

"WHAT."

"I LEFT MY TOWEL IN MY ROOM..."

I sigh and laugh, grab her towel and knock on the bathroom door.

"Here you are milady. Anything else?" I ask sarcastically.

"Nope I'm good, thanks!" She shuts the door and I exhale the breath I held while she had the door open. Okay yes, she as behind it but I swear I could see just enough to be turned on yet not enough to actually have seen anything. 

Okay Killian, let's stop thinking now, shall we?!

Emma finally comes out of the bathroom and comes down to eat breakfast.

"OH MY GOSH COCOA AND GRILLED CHEESE YOU ARE AMAZING!"

She gives me a hug and runs over to the table but stops right before she takes a bight and looks up at me. I sit beside her at the table.

"What's the occasion...?" Emma asks suspiciously. 

"What?! No occasion, can't I just make you your favorite breakfast of all time without an excuse?!"

She gives me the 'okay explain' look.

"Fine I will explain just drink your cocoa and eat your sandwich." She nods and sips her cocoa where I've also mixed in the potion.

A wave of confusion flashes across her face and she looks me square in the eye.

"This tastes funny... did you forget the cinnamon? Oh and by the way I'm so sorry I accused Liam, I had right. And now that I'm thinking about it, the guy that crashed into me looks nothing like Liam at all. I'm so sorry, will you ever forgive me?"

"Oh Emma of course... but there's actually something I need to talk to you about..."

I sigh and put my head in my hands trying to figure out how to say this.

"Killian, whatever it is... you can tell me. And I get that what happened last night was weird. Really weird. But I was hoping we could just forget about it and move on? You can still trust me Killian. You can tell me anything I promise not to get mad."

I look up into her eyes and I realize why I'm having such a hard time keeping my promise to Milah. Look at this woman. So kind, caring. Not caring about her own feelings, only mine. 

"Alright. Emma... I don't think it would be the best idea for you to stay with me anymore..." I say quickly, shutting my eyes tightly.

"Oh... um wow. That's not what I was expecting at all. Uh... okay. I'll... I guess Ill just pack my things and go then."

She rises from the table silently and turns away. But as she leaves I see a single tear running down her cheek. 

What have I done?!

Emma's P.O.V:

He... he wants me gone. He doesn't want me around anymore. 

I cry silent tears as I pack all of my things, leaving the clothes and things Killian bought me. He clearly doesn't want me around so he most likely wants his things back too. Who knows? Maybe he can get his money back.

Unlike the time he spent pitying me... he'll never get that back...

I shove the last of my few things, into my single bag and carry it downstairs, trying to hide my tears and mascara stains.

"See you at work," I say to Killian, averting his eyes.

"Swan..."

"Don't. You don't have to explain anything. I'm used to this. People have been kicking me out of their homes my whole life. Always letting me down. I just thought for once someone might be different but I guess I was wrong. I told I wouldn't be mad at you and I'm not. I'm mad at myself for believing that things could be good for a change... that someone could care. See you tomorrow."

I shut the door, climb into my bug, and drive. Away from Killian, away from the pain, into my world of sorrow. Did I really think that after everything I've been through, things could be different?

With the money earned from the bar, I manage to rent a hotel room for a few days until I can figure something out. 

I throw my bag aside and lie in the bed, silent tears slipping down my face. 

Are you really surprised? Why are you so sad? This is what you're used to after all. It's just one more person who doesn't want you.

Yep. One more person who doesn't want me. Except this time? This time I wanted them.

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Hey guys! Am I evil? I feel evil. I'm sorry!! But I have wanted to do that since I started the story so.... yeah. So? What did you think!! Tell me everything!! Oh and does anybody have any predictions?? Thank you all for reading!!!!

~Maria!!