KAISOO ONESHOTS

GIVE IN TO ME

Author: frozenbreeze
Description: After moving so far away to avoid encountering his ex-boyfriend, Kyungsoo finds himself stuck in the elevator with him when a blackout shuts down the city.

Words count: 5,923

They never talked again after that.

“Why are you dragging this on and playing dumb, Jongin?” Kyungsoo threw his hand in the air, making people throw curious glances at them. “We’re not okay. I’ve gone through too many nights without sleep pondering over how to make this work, but you’re not making an effort.”

Jongin stayed silent, not knowing how to express himself.

“I can’t love you, Kyungsoo,” Jongin admitted.

Kyungsoo was speechless.

Jongin took Kyungsoo’s hand. “You deserve so much better,” he said, tilting Kyungsoo’s head up to meet his eyes.

”Save your breath.” Kyungsoo stepped back and left. He naively hoped Jongin would come and chase after him, but it never happened.

The end of their relationship left more of a bittersweet aftertaste than good memories. Kyungsoo felt hollow for months. He cried himself to sleep many nights wondering where he went wrong. Why would Jongin look at him with affectionate puppy eyes, cling to him, or kiss him so often, so eagerly, if he didn’t feel the same as Kyungsoo did?

They surely took several months to officially label their relationship, but that didn’t mean what they had wasn’t precious. It was everything a boy in his early 20s would want. It was passionate, tender, and intimate. Kim Jongin was everything Kyungsoo had always wanted in his life.

The pain and confusion subdued after Kyungsoo forced himself to repress his feelings. He made himself move on after realizing that overthinking what happened was taking a toll on him.

Memories of him and Jongin still appear in Kyungsoo’s mind from time to time, but months later, Kyungsoo is certainly not expecting Jongin to be at the lobby entrance of his own apartment building. Kyungsoo knows he could recognize the boy’s silhouette whenever he was: broad shoulders, sleek brown hair, and phone against his ear with a deep pout adorning his handsome features.

They haven’t met in quite some time, and the scenes from their shared time inevitably come rushing upon the first sight of Jongin. Kyungsoo clenches his fists as he eyes the man in front of him, nails digging into the palm of his hands as months’ worth of repressed feelings slowly take over him. He hates how Jongin’s presence still makes him feel so overwhelmed.

Maybe running and hiding would be a wise thing to do, completely avoid any sort of interaction with the man ahead of him. Kyungsoo would prefer not to show himself in front of his ex-boyfriend, but he feels curious. He wonders if he would be able to catch Jongin’s attention, earn himself a tiny bit of heed.

Kyungsoo walks closer to take a better look at the boy he missed, the one that comes to his mind when he tosses and turns in bed at night. Jongin looks exactly the same as several months ago: the same boyish hairstyle, the same soft glance, and the same hunched posture that makes him look handsome and dreamy. There he is, the Jongin that Kyungsoo fell in love with, and it takes all his might not to run into Jongin’s arms, to hide in his embrace, to get lost in those eyes, but he knows he couldn’t come up and have that happen.

Jongin’s gaze lingers on Kyungsoo, as if taking in the sight in front of him. Jongin mouth gapes one bit wider, and Kyungsoo loses count of how long they’ve stood still, looking at each other. It is as if the tall boy is trying to come up with something to say, but when Jongin least suspects it, Kyungsoo rushes inside the building — quick steps taking him further inside the lobby.