Message in a Bottle

We Want What We Can't Have (31)

Chapter 31

*Ciara's POV*

13 missed calls and 29 ignored text messages later, I still haven't talked to Harry. It's been some time since I've last seen him, and I haven't found the need to keep track of how long its been since the last time he had said all those harsh words to me.

I felt bad for ignoring Harry for this long, but how could he say all that to me? I also felt bad for Harry because of how much he's already lost in his lifetime. He must have been devastated over his sister and his mother passing away, but I can't have that be the only reason I forgive him.

I miss talking to Harry, it's just such a shame how he has no filter. I don't want to fall in love with another asshole, Harry could just be doing an act to get me to like him. Which unfortunately, must of done its trick, because I really like Harry no matter what he says to me. I've had so many good times with him that keep replaying in my mind and all I truly want is for everything to workout with him, if that's even a possibility now.

Nothing with Mike has occurred since that day also. I'm not going to let down my guard though, because I know when I least expect it, there he will be. I was running in the forest, I've been doing it for a little over a week straight now. I've been meeting up with Emma, she's a really good listener. She never has much to say, but she always wants to talk more about my problems.

I turn around, I hear footsteps lingering from behind me. I wasn't worried, I knew exactly who it would be. "Hey!" I greet when I saw Emma's familiar face.

"Hi," she pants. "I've been trying to catch up to you for a while."

"Oh sorry, I didn't see you."

"Have you talked to him?" She instantly asks.

I shake my head, "he's been calling and texting me a lot. I'm thinking about shutting off my phone, it takes so much out of me not to answer." We were at a steady pace now, my legs were tired from jogging for so long.

"You should talk to him, he obviously misses you. And either way, you can't hide forever, you do have his kid."

"I want to, but I would feel so vulnerable. I hate forgiving people when they don't deserve to be forgiven! You know what I mean?" For the short time I have known Emma, she seems to understand me well. Whenever I say something, she usually agrees and goes in depth about how I feel, which is always spot on.

"You are so complicated, Ciara! Harry isn't the type of person to chase after a girl, you should be happy he's chasing after you!"

"He has to, remember? Doesn't want to look like a bad person to the press." I figure I can stretch out the truth a little bit, because obviously people are concluding Harry and I are some sort of "item," or whatever the term is. I was spotted with Harry a few weeks ago, our faces were published in countless number of magazines, it's no wonder Mike found me, but he probably just doesn't want to appear as the type of guy to go from girl to girl. Maybe I'm just some sort of an act for him, maybe he'll end up being the scammer.

"Actually, he doesn't have to, he wants to." She smiles. During all my conversations with Emma, she always has a need to defend Harry. I wasn't positive on why, but it was something she always did. I don't know if it's intentional, or if it's just the type of person she is, but it was surprising to me considering she doesn't know him but yet, she defends him.

With me lost in thought, she begins talking again. "You should give yourself some credit, if I were a guy, I'd be chasing after you, too." I awkwardly laugh. If only she knew how many people were actually, "chasing," after me. "You like him, am I right?"