Poetry Collection

For What It's Worth

So this poem actually has an alternate title - The Way I Do - because I couldn't pick between the two.

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I've been right in front of you this whole time...
And for five years, I've been pretending to be fine.
You're way off base and completely out of line,
And what you've done to me should be a crime.  

I can't seem to get you off of my mind,
And some days I wish that I could just rewind;
Go back to the way that things used to be,
Before you were the only boy I could really see.  

You don't know who you want, and you never could figure out if it was me;
But you always pick the wrong people...what will it take to make you see?
Your half-smile and your southern-boy charm...well, they drive me wild.
But half the time, when I'm dealing with you I feel like I'm talking to a child. 

"For what it's worth, I love you"...that's what you said.
It was five in the morning, and you should have just gone to bed...
Because three years later, those words are still running through my head,
And when I try to come up with answers, I wind up with more questions instead.  

There have been so many times that I've been burned,
So many lessons that I wish I'd been willing to learn...
But with you, I just keep coming back for more;
Sometimes I wonder if I'm trying to settle the score.  

There isn't anything I wouldn't give, or anything I wouldn't do...
I'd be so good for you, and darlin', I wish you could see that's true.
And I'm still in love with you, though it's hard for me to admit...
Especially considering you're too scared of your own shadow to commit.  

Though mine is true, you act like love is a fairytale,
Like it's a commodity that's simply up for sale;
My love can't be bought, but I'm invisible to you...
You always look right through me, no matter what I do.  

"For what it's worth, I love you"...that's what you said.
And tonight, all I really need is you to be in my bed...
But you'll never love me, not the way that I need you to,
And you'll never find someone who'll love you the way I do.