Lauren Jauregui Imagines

Friends With Benefits (Part 1)

You weren't even sure how it all started. One thing led to another and you kept coming back for more. she could call you in the middle of the night and whisper a few things and minutes later you were in her arms. You hated it, you hated crawling to her every time she would call. You tried ignoring her, you tried avoiding her at all cause but something about her pulled you back. You knew it was just casual sex to her, you weren't okay with it but, she was an addiction. You were addicted to being in her arms. To feeling her lips on yours and on your skin. she was your drug and you were hooked on badly. You would sometimes skip work just to spend one more night with her. You knew it was wrong and you wanted to leave and every time she would say something to have you right back. You needed her just as much as she needed you.

You button your shirt as you looked over at the brunette girl that was still laying in bed. she looked up from her phone when she felt you looking at her and smirked. You blushed and turned around as you picked up your shorts and slipped them on. You picked up your phone and waved to her as you stepped out her room. You blushed bright at the four girls that sat on the couch turned to you. "Bye Y/N" you heard one of them say. "Bye guys" you replied as you took a deep breath and made your way out of her house. You closed your eyes as you continued walking and ran your fingers through your hair. You wrapped your arms softly over your torso and shivered slightly as you walked home. That was the thing about her, you could feel her touch even after hours that you left. You could still feel her soft lips travelling up your neck and you could hear her whispering into your ear. You slipped the key to your apartment and made your way inside.

"You're home" yelled your roommate as she jumped from the couch. You smiled weakly at her and nodded your head "Where were you" she asked as she led you to the couch.
"With her" you replied, she frowned as she looked at you and caressed your cheek.
"Awe baby why do you keep going back to her" she asked as she handed you a small blanket. You placed it softly over your lap and stared down at it playing softly with the fabric
"I like being in her arms" you whispered knowing it was so wrong what you were doing
"She's just using you babe" she said as she looked at you "Why cant you see that honey" she asked as she moved your hair behind your ear. "She told me she loved me" you whispered looking over at her. She shook her head and pulled you into a hug. "She knows what to say to keep you coming back" she said as she rubbed your back softly "She only wants a fuck buddy honey, she doesn't love you" she said making you cry into her shoulder. You knew she was right but you couldn't help but keep going back to her. She would call you whenever she wanted and you would practically run to her house. You hated it but yet you couldn't help from going. You laid down on the couch and rested your head on her lap.

You knew it was wrong to keep going back to her. She only wanted one thing and you were out of there. You rubbed your eyes as you tried to focus on the T.V. "I need to tell her" you whispered as you sat up and looked at your roommate. "What" she asked as she stared at you. "I need to tell her how I feel" you said as you nodded your head "I need to know if she feels the same way. I need to know if after 6 months she feels anything for me" you added "I wont know, if I don't tell her and once I know, I can move on or continued to try" you said. She shook her head and stared at you like you were crazy. "You need to stop going back to her whether she feels the same way or not. Sweetie, if she felt the same way, you could still be there right now. You would be cuddled into her arms. She kicks you out, after every night you spend together" she added "You don't deserve any of this and she sure as hell doesn't deserve you" she said. You bit down on your lip as you listened to her and nodded before standing up.

"I need to know" you shrugged as you grabbed your keys and walked out your apartment door. You made your way back to the girls house and chewed softly on your lip as you thought about how you were going to do this. You looked up at the door and knocked, you stared down at your feet as you waited for them to open. "Back for more baby" she chuckled as she wrapped her arms around your waist pulling your towards her and kissing down your neck. You groaned and pushed her away. "We need to talk" you said as you stared up at her. She nodded her head and grabbed your hand leading you past the girls and to her room.

"Whats going on" she asked as she sat on the bed and pulled you on her lap. You stared down at her fingers as she trailed them up and down your thigh slowly. You stopped her hand and stood up playing softly with your shirt. You should have rehearsal this you thought to yourself as you looked over at her. You bit your lip as you stared into her green eyes. "What do we need to talk about" she asked as she stood up "You're scaring me" she added as she cupped your cheeks "Oh god are you pregnant" she whispered ass he stared at you. You shook your head quickly and stared at her. "No..no no its not that" you said "I need to know what this is" you said as you motioned between the two of you. She looked at you and scratched the back of her head chuckling nervously.

"There is nothing here" she said as she blushed a bit "I mean this is just for fun. No feelings, no nothing" she added "This is until I find someone" she added. "Ouch" you said as you looked at her "Because to me its more" you added "I fell for you" you whispered "The kisses, the sweet gestures you did. When you whispered sweet nothings into my ear" you added "You were just doing that to get some" you looked up at her and rubbed your arm softly. "Look I thought we were pretty clear when we started this" she said as she looked at you "This is for fun" she added "We decided that nothing was going to happen. I don't like you like that. I like you like a...." she said and looked down at her feet. "A good fuck" you asked as you raised your eyebrow looking at her. She sighed and nodded her head slightly.

"I didn't think you would fall for me" she said "I would like to keep doing this if its okay with you" she added and half smiled at you. You stared at her and shook your head. "You honestly think I will keep doing this Lauren" you asked "I told you how I fucking felt and you want to keep sleeping with me" you said. You shook your head and walked out her room, her calling after you. You slammed her front door and shook your head trying to make sense of everything that just went on. You were humiliated, how could someone not grow feelings after 6 months of sleeping around. Then again you probably weren't the only one. You wouldn't be surprise if when you were gone she had a backup plan.