Smile (Dan Howell x Reader)

Chapter 33

•Dan POV•

Julianna sat down on the couch as I sat across from her.

"What's wrong" She asked in a small soft voice

"(y/n)"

"What's wrong with 'her'?"

"She passed out a while ago, me and Phil took her to the hospital and as we were there her-her screen went flat"Her face went flat as well as she was shocked.She came over to the seat next to me to lend a comfort

"oh my god Dan i'm sorry, it's going to be okay" She said placing her hand on my shoulder, looking me with eyes so innocent

•Julianna POV•

"oh my god god Dan i'm sorry, it's going to be okay" I said

I didn't mean it obviously.

I mean yeah it sucks that his girlfriend probably died

But if she did, then her spot could easily be taken right? by me ?

I know I sound like a bitch but here let me tell you my story.

High school, I went to a high school in a small town called middletown. And though it was small, of course (y/n) had to be in it too.

She was always the quiet one, she did have plenty of friends but she was silent as always. I never thought bad of her and I never had anything against her, until February 2007.

I've been best friends with a guy for as long as I could remember, me and him dated for a while but we ended up breaking up, but that never stopped me from liking him still.

There was a dance on that weekend of Valentines week, and I was planning on asking him if he wanted to go, but since we were so close we'd basicity go as close friends, but at that dance I was hoping i'd gett one kiss out of him. On that Friday, two days before the dance I finally had the shot to ask and so i did.

"Hey, can i ask you something ?" I asked

"sure what's up?" he responded with a serious yet outlook

"well i just wanted to know if you wanted to um, go to the dance on sunday?"

"oh Julianna, i'm super sorry but i'm going with (y/n) she asked me yesterday"

"oh okay it's alright just wanted to ask" i laughed off that pain that was in my heart once he mentioned her name.

A week after that dance, he told me he got a girlfriend, it was (y/n) of course. She must of stole the kiss i was planning on taking.And that's when my anger came to play. They would always be together, holding hands in front of me, he would constantly tease me out of flirt but I knew they were still together. That was suppose to me not her, not the silent one, not at all. I've been trying so hard to get with him for years, but once she comes into the picture he "falls in love" .None of it was suppose to happen. I hated her, with so anger, the hate i couldn't keep in.Me and him were now distance because of him and her always together, he never had the time for me. She took him away from me.

She took Taylor away from me

You all probably think I like Dan, oh aha no. I don't. I just need him for the money and fame that's all, no love needed.I didn't mind being an interest in him, I didn't care that he had a girlfriend ,I could easily destroy their relationship.But once I came into his apartment, once i heard the sound of her voice, once i saw her face once again, I lost it. She didn't remember me, of course she didn't, she payed too much attention to Taylor.

(y/n) was not going to be my main target again. i didn't even want to see her face without having the temptation to throw her down.Shes awful.

I might be using Dan for the riches but you have to admit Dan is incredibly attractive for a nerd.Why don't I just go with Phil? Well I would but he gets way too focused with his friends and videos that there would be no time for me which would be pointless.

"I'm so sorry Dan" i say as i rub his back.

"What if its not okay, what if she doesn't live?"

"She will, she will"

This was my only chance, with (y/n) this was my only chance to make him stop.

"Dan look at me" I pushed his chin making him look up to me

"Promise me that either way you will be okay" I saw he was dropping tears from his soft brown eyes

"but what if-"

"no buts, just promise me".

"repeat. I. Promise"

"I. Promise" He repeated as i pulled him in, finally

His lips pressed against me as my hand layed on his chest. This is the chance, the chance I needed. I put my arms around his next as he placed his hand on my shoulder.

I left his lips and he opened his eyes

"I didn't mean for that to happen"he said

"I did" I smiled

"hm" I heard a slight noise come from a door.

I looked over to see the sight of the noise.

Phil.

He must have came in to cheak but saw us instead.Shit

He left the room as I turned to Dan.Ready to explode.

"No no no! This wasn't suppose to fucking happen!"He was now filled with anger, as i can now tell

"All this shit happens because of you! All of it! Problems keep coming my way because of you!I should have never stop to talk to you at the bar! And because of that now my girlfriend is at a death experience! You don't fucking care do you, for all of it!"

"Dan no I swe-" I tried to explain

"just get out"

"what.?"

He didn't awnser but just got up to get his phone, I got up but as soon as I got close to him he left the room.I got the closet pillow and screamed,hard, into it. Everything i needed is ruined. Fuck Dan. I didn't need him, i just wanted the fame.I could get it anywhere else.I took my keys and opened their door, waiting a minute to see if they would come back, they didn't.

"Fuck you" I yelled into the apartment

"No thanks, We don't fuck twats"I heard Phil's voice from a distance

I closed the door behind me, and my now outless body, and left.