Be My Mrs. Choi

4.8: Explain to Me

Jinseok took you to a coffeeshop. You cried and cried. You don't know why he shouted at you. He suddenly got angry after kissing you. He even pushed you. It doesn't really hurt, but you just don't understand.

"Yah! Stop it already! Nothing will change even if you cry!" Jinseok told me.
"Why is he like that?! I just want to meet his friends! Is he ashamed of me?! He keeps me locked up in his house. He doesn't even let me contact any of my friends or family. He doesn't even let me watch tv when I'm alone."
"It's not like that. Maybe he just had a bad day at work."
"Does he have to shout at me?"
"Come on, Y/N-ssi. Just let this pass for once. I'm sure it's unintentional."

No matter how much you try not to, you still think something is wrong. You keep asking yourself what you did wrong. Was it because you went to his workplace? Was it because his friends saw you?

"Jagiya," You heard him call you. You immediately stood up. "Mianhae." He said pulling you into a hug.
"Why did you do that?" You asked him as you cried against his collarbone.
"I'm sorry. I panicked. I swear I will never do that again. Did I hurt you? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do it."

You don't want anything else. You just want to go. He apologized and that's enough for you. You just try to convince yourself to trust him even if he can't give you an acceptable reason why he did that.

There's no reason for me to be mad. Getting angry is just a waste of time. I want to spend my time with you happily, not being mad with you.

It's that voice again. You pulled yourself away from Wonwoo a little wincing. It made him worry. He held your arms to help you steady yourself as you grasped onto a chair behind you. Your head feels like it's cracking open. This happens more often now. The pain is getting worse too.

"Jagi, are you alright?"
"N-ne." You stared at the floor for a while trying to ignore the pain. "Let's leave. Gaja. I-I don't want..."

And everything went blank.

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Omo!~ You guys are so cute. So far, I feel confident about the results of our midterms because I was so inspired and I studied like a super genius!~ However, we still have 3 more tests on Monday so I can't publish so much. Mianhae. Remember that I love you! And, I love Kang Haneul too!~ And, I don't know. I'm starting to like Mr. Kkaebsong again. I'm so...nevermind. Here I go again. So talkative. I want to have some rest from school!~

Oh. I forgot to thank you for everything. This book suddenly went up the ranking in a day. And, I was so shocked. That's past more than a hundred ranks! Anyway, it's not yet in the 500th rank but...let's see.