Forever and Always is Complicated (UsUk Fanfiction)

Chapter One

Alfred's POV

"You bloody wanker, you're un-fucking-believable."

"Me?! I'm unbelievable! Do me a fucking favor and look at yourself Arthur!"

Arthur scoffed, resting a hand on his hip, rolling his eyes, "You're a bloody idiot my my.."

I simply laughed, "I'm a fucking idiot? That's the funniest thing you've ever said, almost as dry as your food."

His face scrunched up in anger, his fist balled up, turning away from me before speaking: "I fucking hate you Alfred, you know that? Right?"

I lost it, he had no right whatsoever to say that and I didn't deserve it either.

"HATE ME?! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU?! YOU HAVE MADE ME DEAL WITH SOO MUCH OF YOUR FUCKING SHIT!! SO MUCH BULLSHIT!"

"Oh ho ho really?" He inquired, scowling at me, "You think you have it bad here, you practically ignore me, eat the most food I've ever seen anyone eat and you're a bloody git!!"

Practically ignored him!? What even? I have a job to do, sorry I have to leave once in a while, I'm Francis Bonnefoy's best male model! 

"Practically ignore you? What the hell are you talking about? I give you so much attention Arthur! So much! You never give me anything! How do you think I feel when I have to travel, I have to work almost every day to provide to keep you happy!"

Arthur paused, glaring at me, "I'm done with you."

"Ah, what're you gonna do about it huh?"

"Simple. Quite simple really."

"Lemme hear your glorious little plan."

"I'm leaving."

My mouth dried suddenly, I don't feel so smart anymore...

"Leave..huh?"

"That's what I bloody said right?"

"And where are you gonna go?"

"Home."

"But you don't has one besides our home," I reminded Arthur, who shook his head in return, chuckling distastefully.

"My mum, she's totally okay me moving in and getting away from your dumb ass!"

"Well... F-Fine! Please do! Go! Just a-abandon me! Abandon us!"

Arthur's cheeks were glimmering...
Tears..

"There is no us Alfred," he whispered, awkwardly staring at the floor, "We're done.."

Done? No, he's joking, joking right?

Be strong dude... Be strong..

"Well good! I'm glad we're done! I could finally be me and happy! No more nagging! No more distasteful comments and no more commitment! No more forever and always!"

Arthur still spoke in a whisper, turning his attention back at me, smiling like an idiot, breaking on the inside though.
"I'm glad you and I have mutual feelings about this..."

"As do I."

He disappeared into his bedroom, us not having shared one in quite a while, and slammed the door. Leaving me with my faults and thoughts.

"We're done...? We're.... Breaking up? Oh god no... Why...?"

Soon enough Arthur came into the living room, things in hand, as well as a printed plane ticket. I stood up from the couch.
"You're really leaving?"

"We're bad for each other Alfred," Arthur sighed, adjusting his sunglasses, I could still see the tears streaking his face, I felt my heart snap.

"Arthur can't we talk about this?"

"There's nothing to talk about Alfred. We don't feel the same way about each other like we did years ago, we're drifting apart and it just isn't good for either of us. Your job's complicated and I stay at home all day alone, we need stable relationships. I'm sorry Alfred, we need to be apart, forever."

I choked, frowning more, "We're really over? But Arthur-"

Arthur gave a small nod, "It's what's best for us Alfred. We need our own lives, as far away from each other as possible."

"But Arthur..." I started, feeling my tears start falling, I put a hand on his cheek, resting it there, he moved it away, shaking his head no.

"Artie... I love you... Please just give me a chance!"

Arthur stiffened, shaking his head more, "No Alfred.. I'm sorry, have fun with your life. We need to see other people, we need sparks in our lives again. Without each other. You're nineteen, you have your whole life ahead of you-"

"You're only twenty three Arthur.." I quietly mumbled, I felt his glare, I didn't have to look at him to know he was glaring at me.

"Alfred just... Forget I ever happened to you."

Before I could protest boom! The door slammed shut and Arthur and I were finished.
I stared at the door with anticipation that Arthur was joking and would come back and we could seal the deal with makeup sex or something...

A minute went by, five minutes, ten minutes, an hour and nothing! Arthur was officially out of my life forever...
I loved that man, he was the most important person in my life... My forever and always.. I drove him away...
I can't believe I let him get away...

Him of all people...

He left me. I didn't leave him. He left me.
I felt extremely broken, I wasn't allowed to be whole anymore, half of my fucking heart was ripped out of my chest. I could barely breathe. It was like Arthur left and so did my organs.
He took my lungs, cause I could barely breathe.
He took my brain, I could barely function with what just walked out of my live..
And he took my heart with him when he walked out that door.

I cried, I sobbed. I was dying on the inside to put it in laments terms.

Continuing to sob, I got off the couch and walked over to the fireplace mantle, me and Arthur had a lot of long nights next to the fire.

The stereotypical Fall and Winter couple, curled up with a book and sweets and like stereotypical white girls with seasonal lattes and a blanket together.
Now I couldn't have that anymore..

I looked at the middle picture on the mantle. It was me and him.
The man that stole my heart.
The man that was my heart that I drove away like the nothing I was.

"I love you Arthur..." I whispered to the picture, wiping the rest of my tears away.