Treadmill (Harry Styles) [COMPLETE] {EDITED}

Chapter 78

UNHAPPY

Angie

September 2016

I'm in my Junior Year of College, everything's going great so far. I've been missing Lauren a lot but I know she's in a better place and that everything is fine up there. It's been 8 months since she passed away and I've accepted it and I am happy because she is no longer suffering.

It's just September and I've been way too busy. There are more shifts in the hospital and more work to do. More requirements to finish which means I've practically been isolating myself from people.

Harry and I are three years into the relationship, you'd think we're happy and all that but we aren't. We've been going through a rough patch since late July and it seems like we can't recover from then on. He's in Los Angeles filming for his new movie. Even though he's 6 hours away, we can't even keep in touch because of this rough patch.

Basically since July, Harry and I have been distant from each other. We're given so much things to do and so much work to do. Sometimes, if Harry's available, I wouldn't be. And if I was available, Harry wouldn't. We'd literally argue about the smallest things, and lately, I haven't been happy. I should be, I mean it's Harry. He's every girls' dream boyfriend, and he's my dream boyfriend. But lately, I haven't been happy.

Every time we're on the phone, we're either arguing or really not in the mood to talk. It's just been rough. It first started when both of us started to be not understanding about the other one's situation. He'd force me to spend time with him when he knows I have a shift at the hospital or I'm busy doing school requirements. And if I want to hang out with him, he either has other plans with other people already.

Not only was there this unavailability but there were a ton of arguments over jealousy. It's getting a bit out of hand. I have guy friends in my clique and he has girl friends in his, we both get jealous and it's all stupid but for some reason, we can't recover from it. We just can't agree to anything anymore. Sometimes, the I love yous we say to each other aren't meant anymore.

As we both grow older, we tend to be a lot busier and it's hard for the other one to understand the other one's situation. It then leads to an argument, and eventually into a fight. This has been going on for the past few months and I'm afraid that soon, it'll get too much for the both of us and either one of us will break it off.

I know it's kind of stupid how this tiny fragment of argument can lead to me being unhappy and not being satisfied with this relationship. It's ironic really because he spent two months to live with me. We were fine until July started and then we hit rock bottom and never found our way up.

In a relationship, you have to have understanding and make comprises. Well since we've hit our rough patch, it has been nothing but arguments, misunderstanding, jealousy, and ignoring each other.

We haven't spoken in a day and that wouldn't surprise me because we had one time where we didn't speak for a whole week. We were happy when we started speaking to each other but the next day, we'd start all over again with the arguing and then the ignoring. These arguments are really getting old and soon, one of us will just get tired of it.

I'm currently in the library doing my research. I'm writing a thesis this year and I just have to put all my effort in this. People would tell me this is the year where relationships go and die. You're too busy doing your thesis to even focus on your relationship. For example, recently Patrick and his boyfriend broke it off because both of them started to become very busy. Patrick is still in the phase where he needs to let go of steam so we party every Friday night, that's why Friday night is where we specifically don't have our shift in the Children's Hospital. Even my best friend and roommate, Louise, broke up with James not because of how busy both of them are getting it's because James buried his dick in some other chick's pussy. He's an absolute pig.