Unchained Heart

Chapter 23

What seemed like eternity the kiss lasted about a minute and pulling away was difficult because he hasn't kissed me like that in a very long time. As Sheena began her final song of the night Prince stared into my eyes as he smiled. It was like he was his old self again. That sweet and gentle soul that I left behind while I was in college was slowly coming back. His eyes were warm and inviting and his face expression was loving. This is the man I've been waiting for. My Prince has come back to me. I hope he doesn't leave me again. I need this Prince to stay with me until the end. His right hand ran through my hair and down to the back of my neck pulling my head closer to his.

  "I'm really sorry for everything I've done to you my love. Please forgive me?" He whispered.

  "This takes time Nelson you know that."

  "Yes I know and you have been there for me and I haven't always been for you. I'm willing to make everything up to you."

  "Skipper-"

  "Just here me out. Missing your ceremony was the worst thing I could have ever done and I feel like shit knowing that I bailed on you on your big day. I'm gonna fix it. All of it. I swear. I'm gonna earn your heart again."

  "Prince why are you so worked up about this?" I asked him with a smile.

  "Because the man I was days ago is not the man I am or who I want to be. You are my whole world and I wouldn't be where I am right now if it weren't for you. Home is where the heart is and your heart......is my home. Let me come home Mouse. Tell me I can come home."

Damn Nelson! You know how to make me weak at the knees every time! I don't know how much more of his sweet demeanor I can handle. He's just so amazing but at the same time I don't want to let my guard down just to get my feeling hurt. What has his man done to my soul to make me want to just let all of this shit go and forgive him?

  "Prince.......I......"

  "I know you don't want to do it right away but.....let me prove it to you that I want this to work. I lost you as my lover once. I do t wanna lose you again. I need you to stay with me and with everything that's happened......Regan you mean the world to me. If tonight had to be your last night alone with me then I would cherish this night forever. I don't know what I'll do without you when.....please just.....let me hear you say it. Say that you love me even if you don't mean it. Even if it's for the last time! I just need to hear you say it!"

My eyes filled with tears as he poured his heart out to me. He held my hands tightly while I listened to him confess everything he had bottled up inside of him. The more he opened up to me the more my tears fell. I could barely get a single word out I was crying so much. This was all I wanted ever since the day I came home and showed him my scars. He's finally telling me how he feels. He took the sleeve to his shirt and wiped my face.

  "Don't cry my angel. You're too beautiful for all that." He said.

As bad as I wanted to say something I couldn't do it. I just crashed into his arms and cried my heart out. He wrapped his strong arms around me leaving gentle kisses on my forehead.

  "Did I say something wrong?" He asked me worried that he might have hurt my feelings somehow.

  "No! You said everything.....right! This was all I wanted from you! I needed you to tell me how you felt about everything. Why did you want to hide this from me?"

  "Because I was afraid! I was afraid that if I.....if I said something you would tell me to suck it up and get over it. You're just so strong and you seemed like you weren't afraid of dying."

  "Prince are you kidding me? I'm scared shitless. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna leave my mom I told you that. I don't want to leave my life behind."

  "Then why say it when we fight?"

  "I'm reacting out of anger and hurt Prince come on you've known me for how long now?"

I wiped my tears as he thought about it and I had a point. He should know me better than anyone by now. I know I say a lot of crazy shit when I'm mad but that's only because I'm mad and nothing else. Once I come to I'm back t my normal self.

  "Then let's make a promise to each other right now to keep our anger to a minimum at least until I come back from the tour."

  "It's a deal nerd!" I giggled as I stuck out my pinky.

He looked down at my hand and then looked up at me.

  "Pinky swears? Really? That's what you go with?" He asked.

  "Do it or there's no deal troll."

  "Alright! Pinky swear."

We locked pinkies and shook on it.

  "This is stupid." He replied in a Childish and disgusted tone.

  "I love you too Skipper." I laughed.

We locked eyes as if it was for the final time and something seemed different in the way he looked at me. He took my hand and led me to a small room. It wasn't a dressing room but it wasn't a room either. I thought we were inside a closet of some kind.

  "What are we doing in here Nelson?" I asked him trying to figure out what he was up to.

  "Say it again."

  "Say what exactly?"

  "That you love me. Say it."

He had me pinned against the door and kissed me on then neck.

  "If your gonna seduce it out of me then you can forget it. I won't do it."

He stopped and his eyes met mine.

  "Please? Say it?"

  "I love you nerd geez!"

  "Like you mean it."

  "What I said I love you what more do you want?"

He grabbed me behind the legs lifting me in the air and wrapped my legs around his waist while I was still being held at the door.

  "I want you to mean it." He said deeply.

  "I do. I mean it. I love you."

  "Really?" He asked as his lips softly brushed against mine.

  "Yes. I've always loved you. That's never gonna change. As long as you say that you love me."

  "You don't ever have to worry about me not loving you mama. You have my heart lock and key."

  "Good.....because I......"

  "What?"

  "I missed us."

With one kiss he responded as his heart raced against my chest.

  "I missed us too baby girl."