That last chapter is everything up to today, I am gonna write this next bit and see if anyone thinks I should keep going.
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So I just had a shower and I couldnt help it. The razor was left in the shower I couldnt stop myself. for some reason I was crying then I hit the cut which stung a bit and I just started laughing (does anyone know why I did this?) honestly I think im losing my mind. One minute I miss James and the next I am happy that he is gone from my life. One minute im happy and the next I want to kill everything. What the hell is wrong with me????
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Im sorry for this chapter I really needed to vent and this is the only place I can vent I have nobody else to talk to about this.
