Okay so this is hard for me to write but this is abput when I nearly ended it all...
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Okay it was just over a month ago and I had promised James the night the we broke up officially that I would not cut again. Anyways I was olanning on cutting but I stead I took 8-10 pills (cant really remember)and I just went to sleep. I didnt write a ote or anything I was just hoping I would die but much to my dissapointment I woke up in the morning with a massive headache... the whole day I was planning on trying again that night I took the same amount of pills but it still didnt work :'( I gave up after that untill I found out that if you drink petrol you die, I was going to do that andwhen I asked a friend how much it would take he rwalised why I wanted to know and said to not be so stupid and selfish. That made me realise that I would reather be dead then be called selfish.
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thats all for now I cant write anymore or I might trigger somrthing in me
