While sitting by myself today I realised that I cut because it is the only thing that gets my mind off James. I honestly cant stop thinking about all these memories of us from when we were going out and it drives me crazy. Its like a constant 24/7 headache and it is making me go insane.
just to recap. On thursday the 26th and friday the 27th of december I made 18 new lines and a feather with 50 lines so thats a total of 68 new cuts in two nights. Of course mum found out and made me show her while I was half awake so I didnt even realise and as per usual she threatened the thearapist...... I was meant to go today(monday) but it never happened. ai dont think she will ever take me to the thearapist.
