Hope Has Returned

Chapter 11

Hope Has Returned Chapter 11 (Ginny's POV)

I had finally convinced my family to let me see Harry. The last time I saw him was yesterday. It might not sound like much but is sure as hell was for me. Once we got to St. Mungo's I saw Ron and Hermione in the tea room talking to the Dursleys. Dudley and Harry's aunt looked like the world was ending. I wonder why? Then we got Ron and Hermione to come up with is to visit Harry. When we walked in we could hear someone singing a sad song. I looked back at the door and read 'private room' so who could be singing? that question was answered once I saw Harry. Wow his voice was great. I listened hard to make out what he was singing.
"Home, I've heard the word before. But it's never meant much more than just a thing I've never had. A place, they say hey know your place but I've never had a place to even know. Or a face that I could go to if I needed someone there." But my mom had to go and cut him off. Then to joke around I called him 'scar head'. He laughed at first but then he started thinking about something and became horrified. He muttered something to my mom about it being all his fault and went back to crying. The poor thing. At least it will only be a month that he will be stuck here.

(Harry's POV)

Fred, Tonks, Remus, Colin, Snape, Me of gods sake. I feel as if everyone died because if me.
"So--rry eve-r-yone I can't seem to get over the fact that I probably won't beat the odds" I say still sobbing. "The odds are NEVER in my favor. What if Voldemort chose Neville. What if I WASN'T a champion. What if I never defeated the Dark Lord. What if I didn't fall in love with my best mate's sister. WHAT IF! I don't want my life to be made up of what ifs. I want to live knowing that I won't die standing on 'what ifs'. I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT I WILL FALL WITH THAT 90% AND DIE! BUT I WON'T GO KNOWING I LIVE ON WHAT IFS. WHAT IF FRED, TONKS, REMUS, COLIN, SNAPE, AND MANY MORE DIDN'T DIE BECAUSE OF ME! IT IS ALL MY FAULT! THE ODDS SEEM TO HATE ME SO ENJOY ME WHILE I'M LIVING BECAUSE ITS TIME TO SAY SO LONG!" and with that I started crying. I wouldn't stop. Dudley came running upstairs and to my room looked at me and said
"Don't worry Harry. I heard everything from the bottom floor. Don't worry" and he left to go back to the tea room. Just then a bunch of Healers came running in to hold me down and they whispered nice things in my ear like 'it will be okay' and 'calm down Mr. Potter, calm down'. Once they got be calmish they said
"Mr. Potter let your feelings go and be true to you and don't ask 'what if I did this' just do it." And with that they left.