Military heart

broken

************************************1-1-14 wensday**************

****************************************george******************

     it want my fault i said. well idiot it was half your fault,you kissed her back johann said. i didnt mean too i sighed. i was drunk i mumbled. bro go clean yourself up and lets go see lizzie mike said.ill call her mike said. i already did and it went staright to voicemail johann said. i sighed and walked upstairs to go shower. i showered and did the hygiene things. i put on long jeans and a gray shirt. i put on gray jacket. i put on gray addidas. i grabbed my things and walked downstairs.ready i said. yeah john yelled and fist bumped.we all climbed into my baby. mike drove since i didnt have the energy to drive. we passed by taco bell and got us all some food.

     We drove torward liz house. we arrived their and i rushed out the car. i ringed the doorbell continously. george calm down maybe shes asleep johann said.soon the door open. liz i am-why are you ringing the doorbell like that someone said. i looked and saw it was anthony. what are you doing here? i asked him while glaring. not your buissness he said.watever get out the way i need to talk to liz i said. no you hurted her enough he said and closed the door. i got mad and pounded on the door.soon it was ripped open. what do you want!!!? liz yelled. i looked at her and saw her  eyes was blood shot red,puffy. her hair was a mess and it looked like she just got out of bed. she smelled like alcohol.

        Liz? i said. she looked at me and i saw hurt and anger in her eyes. liz let-*slam*. she slam the door in my face. i heard some muttering and the door open,but it wasnt liz.come back later,nows not a good time anthony said and closed the door. i sighed. come on well come back later,shes still-i know i sighed. i walked back to the car.they all piled up in the car. it was awkward.mike turned on the radio. soon a slow familiar song urned on. i listened to the lyrics and it was the song that me and liz danced to.

          I  reached over and turn the station. it was rock music. i eeded it to devour the pain i felt.if i didnt get drunk. then i wouldve been fine,liz wouldve been fine,eveything wouldve been fine i thought.soon we arrived at my flat and I saw Kelly on the frontsteps.

   We walked out the car what are you doing here? I asked her. Baby she purred and came close. I took a step back. How many times do I have to tell your crazy ass were done ,stay away from me!! I yelled at her.

    But baby she purred. Stay the hell away orI'll call the cops I said angrily. Fine she growled and walked to her car. Fuck you!!!! She yelled as she speeded away. I grumbled and unlocked the door and walked in.

I grumbled and unlocked the door and walked in.

Hey George you have a voicemail johann said.I hurried and walkd toward the phone and pressed the play button.Hey baby last night was-*slam* as i threw it aginst the wall.

    I walked upstairs and closed my bedroom door. I didn't know what to do. I am in a pickle. How can I fix this? I thought aggravated. I rubbed my face and sighed. I laid on my bed and tried to remember the new years party.

but couldn't i was broken inside and out.

*****************************liz pov*******************************

    so me and anthony had a me and anthony day. we watched movies and ate junk foods. man did i gain pounds.soon my phone rang and it was mike.

hello i said.liz just listen to me it wasn't how you-look i saw what i saw,you knowi like george i'm starting to-look liz just listen-no you liten i forgive him okay, i forgive george if he want to be with kelly he can,i won't stop him i said.

          Just don't-how are you? mike asked me. i'm fine why would i-you'r lying he said. no i'm not i'm fine i said.well he' sbroken can you help him? mike asked me.

      Mike i gotta-liz george needs you,he needs your help,pl-this is too much i'm s-s-sorry i gotta go i sobbed.but li- i snapped the phone and slid into the wall and sobbed. liz? anthony asked me. i can't do this this is too much i sobbed.

         Hey your not alone i'll help you he said. then he hugged me and i cried oto his shoulder. me and g-g-george are broken i sobbed. this is too much i sobbed. anthony can you do me a favor? i asked him.anything he said. can you drive me somewhere? i asked him. sure he said.

     I wiped my eyes and got my things. i climbed into his jeep.  i went to a flower shop and got jack favorite flowers. then we drove to the cemetery.i'll be back i said. take your time anthony said. i nodded and walked toward jack headstone.

       I laid the flowers down. i got on my knees.hey sweetie long time no see,i'm fine how are you?. well i'm going on a trip it's not for long ill be going over to my parents house for the weekend. i need to get away,break away. everything is going fast and i can't handle it,but i'll try. i don't know what to do jack. ifeel like i'm frozen and theirs no exit.

    Everything is going-you know what i would love to go on  pray healing trip. like from eat pray love. that would be so awsome.i'll do it i don't know. jack i'm lost and i need help.i'm trying to fix everything,but it' just hard. i love you so much sweetie i'll return again. love you i choked up. then tears fell down. soon arms were wrapped around me. i turned around and saw it was anthony.

i just can't do this anthony i need to fix myself 'm broken i sobbed onto his chest. i'm broken i sobbed.don't worry liz i'll help you he said.

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so i know this is either short or long but, the other update i had for this was gone i don't know how. so this is completed on 1-10-14 8:17p.m. this was rushed.

vanessa/Butterflymama<3