How i feel

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***************************************George*************************************

**************************2-26-14Monday****************************************

                    I watched liz body moved up and down as she breathed.liz please wake up,we miss you i said.i held her pale hand.liz please i said. i listened to her monitor beeps.plz liz it's,it's important,and-and i-*knock-knock* i sighed and soon johann walked in.how are you? she asked me. i'm coping i sighed. so what the doctor said? johann asked me.she's getting better i smiled a little.

              Hungry? she asked me.i nodded she gave me a starbucks bag. thnx i said.we sat down and i dranked the coffee.it was quiet as we ate and drank.she'll wake up soon johann said. i nodded go home,get some sleep she told me.but-go now sleep she ordered. i sighed and walked out.how is she?mike asked me. getting better i sighed.i walked out the hospital and went into my car.soon rain started great like this day isn't sad enough i thought.

                                       I drove through the rain. soon i arrived at my flat. i walked through the rain and unlocked my door. i dropped the keys onto the table. i took off the wet clothes and went to go shower.i changed into black shorts and a red t-shirt. i put on black and red Adidas.i walked downstairs. i sighed as i looked at the pic of me and liz at the Christmas ball.tears streamed down my face. fuck i shouted as i punched the wall. 

                            I pulled my hand out and watch gravel fall. i panted and ignore the blood. why? why? i thought as i watch the picture.i slid down the wall and hugged the frame to my chest.i let the tears fall and wished that this happened to me. what did john mean? i thought.soon my phone rang. it was an unknown number.

                            Hello i said as i picked up. what happened to liz?!!!! anthony yelled. she's in a coma i chocked.what he said shocked. she got in a car accident on valentines day i sighed.the line stayed quiet. what hospital is she in? anthony asked.jackson i said. soon the line went dead.i wiped my eyes and got up. i went over to the couch and laid down on it. i draped a cover over me. i sighed and sent a quick prayer out to john to bring her back.

                       Soon i fell asleep.

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******************************Liz*******************************************************

                     I watched as i crossed my legs.now you can feel your legs that's great john said. i nodded.where are we? i asked john. he didn't say anything.soon the grass turned into a cemetery.how are you helping me? i asked him. you need to feel better you got into this accident for a reason john said.i'm tired of this for a reason,can you just tell me why! i said frustrated.he sighed and soon he was gone.

                            Really i thought. i kicked the dead dirt around with my feet.soon i heard voices. i follow the voice and it led me to john grave.i saw myself crying.he don't loves me,he left me for her  i heard myself say.my heart broke at the scene.soon an image appeared.george packing his bags and leaving. i thought curiously. why is he packing? i thought.i'm gonna miss this place he sighed and walked out the door.

                           My heart broke more.soon a light appeared from above me. it was like leading me into it.what's going on? i thought. soon as i floated up i saw angels all around. am i dead? i thought.hello lizzie someone said.why did you follow the light? it wasn't your time she said. follow that light it led me here i said.oh dear she said.soon she disappeared and it was all white.what's happening? i thought worriedly.

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************************2-27-12 Tuesday************************************

***************************George*********************************************

           I squinted my eyes as the sunlight hit my face. wait sunlight!! i thought. i jumped up and looked around.i slept through the day!! i thought worriedly.i looked at my phone and saw it was 9 a.m. my eyes went wide.i ran up the stairs and went to go shower and shave.i changed into a white sweater and blue jeans.i put on white Adidas.i grabbed my keys and rushed out the house to the hospital.

              I arrived at the hospital i signed in and headed toward liz room.i tapped mike on his shoulder and ordered him to go home.i grabbed her hand and stroked it.she was pale and she lost weight.she still had the bandage on her head.the bruises faded and the purplish spots faded.it looked like she was sleeping peacefully.i'm going to tell her.liz-*beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep* no!! i screamed as her heart monitor did. soon nurses and doctors rushed in.

                   Liz!! i shouted. sir you have to leave,you-plz help her i choked.soon he tears fell. the nurse gave me a hug and led me outside.i watched as doctors and nurses worked to bring back liz.as she pushed me out the room. i saw the machine pumping liz chest trying to resurrect her.i should've told liz earlier how i feel about her.is this what john meant for a reason for me to confess my love to her i thought.

               I watched as nurses and doctors worked on liz. soon they kicked me to the waiting room.i waited as seconds passed,but it felt like hours.my heart was pumping wildly.i tugged my hair out in worriedness.liz please don't leave me.soon johann rushed toward me.what happen? she asked me worriedly.her-her heart gave up i sobbed.she gasped and hugged me.we both slid down on the floor.

               Soon nurses walked out the room with sad faces.i started hyperventilating as i saw their faces.my tears came out more.i watched them give me sad faces and looks.they rolled the machine away.i hugged johann tighter.i couldn't imagine liz leaving us.no she was a fighter,she-i heard footsteps walk toward us.i looked up at the doctor. he had a emotionless mask.i wiped my tears away,but more came.

                      The doctor opened his mouth and my world came crashing down.

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so that's all completed on 2-28-14

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