Cheater b.w.s

42.

Taylor's POV:

I sat on the edge of my bed fiddling with my fingers as Brad leaned against the door frame staring at me. I felt so intimidated by his stare, I could tell he was disappointed in me for the way I am now, believe me he's not the only one. At the corner of my eye I saw him slide his back down the door frame and sit on the floor with his knees up infront of him, head in hands, sighing.

"This is all my fault" Brad mumbled under his breath. I crawled down and sat with my back against the wall near where he was sitting.

"what's your fault?"

"You"

"Brad I did this to myself I was the one who convinced myself I was worthless and that you never loved me.. you broke me but I lost the pieces and now I'm nothing"

"Your not.." Brad sat up so he was kneeling infront of me. "You are everything!" He said cupping my face and smashing his lips onto mine. "Everything" He said smashing them into mine again. "Everything!" He said starting to break down as he held onto my face, sobbing controllably, my heart sank at the image infront of me.. I couldn't do this to him.

"Brad.. brad listen to me" I said cupping his face.

"Go" I said so confidently it shocked me as well as him.

"What?" He asked confused, our faces so close I could see every freckle graced on his face.

"Leave.. live your life, without me" I watched as fear took over his eyes.

"No no no.. that's the last thing I ever want to do! I can't live without you Taylor.. I need you"

"No you don't.. You've never needed me.. not as much as I've needed you" I start to cry myself. "But I can't do this anymore.. I can't hold you back from your future, you are gonna be huge and I don't wanna be the burden stopping you" I said with my head rested against his.

"You've never been a burden"

"No but I will Brad" I said jumping up and quickly moving myself away from him holding my towel up. "You say that now Brad.. but what about tomorrow or the next day? Or 5 years from now and the vamps are touring America and you can't go because I need you here, I don't wanna be that person.. so please just go" I sobbed turning my back to him so he couldn't see my face.

"I love you.. you know that Taylor.. I will always love you.. always" he said kissing my shoulder. I could feel my heart physically breaking within my chest, I have never been in so much pain.

"Maybe one day we'll see each other again" I said quickly turning round to see him at the door.

"I fucking hope so" he breathed shaking his head lightly and with that he left the apartment. I collapsed onto my bed hugging my legs, crying so hard I could sworn my eyes were bleeding. I cried all day not moving from my bed till I eventually fell asleep.

"Taylor.. Taylor" I could hear someone calling me. I opened my eyes to see Amy my new friend on my course who lets me stay here sometimes when I don't wanna be alone.

"Ahh.. what time is it?" I sat up rubbing my head which was throbbing due to the screaming and crying.

"It's 9am, you slept all day yesterday" she said a little concerned.

"Oh.. I guess I bet get ready for my lecture" I said getting out of bed and making my way to the bathroom.

"Are you sure your alright? You look a little ill"

"Yeah just feeling abit drained from the work" I lied.

"We need a night out soon girl! That'll put some colour back in your skin! Anyway I'm off gotta meet Charlie before his history exam" she winked wiggling her eyebrows and plastered a fake smile to avoid being questioned.

"Oh yeah and you've got a letter by the door.. it doesn't look official or anything probably another love letter from Jacob!" She said walking out the door as I rolled my eyes.. that's the last thing I need right now more guys.

I jumped in the shower and took a little longer then usual just letting the hot water run down my back as my thoughts wonder off to where Brad was right now, who was he with, was he happy?

Of course he is.

Once I was finished with the shower I got dressed in a simple outfit of black skinny jeans, white low top converse and big t shirt with my Unis logo on it tied up at the back. I grabbed my laptop, my books and my bag and made my way over to my lecture room. As I reached the front door I saw the letter sitting on the floor I picked it up and shoved it in my back pocket, I'll read it after my lecture.

/ /

Finally! 2 hour lectures are just not my thing...

I sat on a bench on campus and took out my box of cigarettes placing one between my lips and lighting it, when I remembered the letter, I pulled it out my pocket and stared to open it.

I swear to god if this is from Jac-

I looked down at the scribbled handwriting and knew this wasn't a cringe worthy letter from Jacob.

It was

"Brad"