How I feel

V

"Mmmmhhhh" I groaned out, I promised that I wouldn't drink that much again after Tatum's birthday last year when I projectile vomited all over Declan's mum Grannie P. Hands down, one of the worst nights of my life.

I could smell the bacon and eggs that waft through the room and groaned again, trying to crack open an eye to see where I was. Soph was sitting there with a very confused and worried expression. Looking at her face it took me a whole 30 seconds to realise that we weren't in our room. Looking around I was confused as to where exactly I was, until Sophie filled me in,

"Adam let you sleep in his bed last night and he took the couch, but both he and Jake spent most of the night up with you making sure you were okay", as soon as she said this I was confused, Matthew actually let me stay in a room with two guys and didn't even bother to come and see if I was okay.

"Jeremy kept trying to come in but you were in no state to see him so Matt was with him for most of the night" Soph said coming and smoothing my hair as I continued to sit in a daze.

"What happened last night babe?" For some reason her words just set me off and I began to cry and just break down on her. I told her what Jeremy had said and the fact that Adam had been such a good friend over the last few weeks, Jeremy flirting with the girls, ruining our day, being different from these girls, and about Jer in general. When I was done she was silent and holding me close to her as she stroked my head,

"So when are you going to tell him you love him?"

Silence was all that followed her question. I didn't bother denying it because it was blatantly obvious that I was in love with my best friend. But to tell him that, I could never do that! I was closer to him than I was Matthew, he was my saving grace when we moved here and was one of the reasons that I felt so comfortable and safe with the move. My eyes glistened with tears as I looked up at her,

"Never"

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Not long after our conversation I decided that I needed to get out of this room and get some fresh air. Going for a swim in the surf had always made me feel better after a big night, so Sophie and I went to get our stuff and go to the beach for a quick dip.

On our way out we were stopped by Jake,

"Where you going sweetness? I just made bacon and eggs for ya" he practically yelled at me whilst keeping a massive smile on his face. I knew he was only trying to amplify my headache so I flipped him the bird and walked out of the house.

The water was so cold and refreshing, it immediately made the queasiness in my stomach disappear. By the time I got out I was looking for Soph and couldn't find her. Looking over to where my towel was I suddenly new why..... Jeremy.

Begrudgingly I walked over and grabbed my towel ready to make an escape, but he stopped me as soon as I tried to,

"Allie, can we talk?"

"I have to go see where Sophie is, maybe some other time" I gave him a grimace as I walked past him to only be stopped again. Letting out a groan, I whipped around again to try and get my hand back and piss off away from him.

"I knew you would be here"

I felt like I was back in high school, trying to hide from everyone, and Jeremy was the only one who found me. Who knew me well enough to know where to look for me. Fuck me.

"Yeah I knew you would, that's why I didn't bother with the note. But I have to go and look for Soph so I'll see you later then"

"She went home, told me to wait for you"