A Player's Responsibility

Josh's view chapter 6: page 1

Chloe, sally and Aunt Jane started to arrange the funeral, because they are great and that type of stuff and everybody in the neighbourhood love sally and Chloe and loved my mom.  Aunt Jane came and stayed with me, to help me and take care of me, but I really wanted to be alone.  It was like I was numb and had no feeling; I didn't sleep or eat for days. It was like everything was destroyed, my life has turned over completely, everything is shattered into a billion pieces and I could ever fix it back to the way it was. It was I was living in darkness under this dark cloud threatening to engulf me. I had about thirty phone calls but I didn't pick up, sally, Chloe and Michael and my other friends, even neighbours came to check on me but I rejected their sympathy and whatever they were offering. Sally came one day to my room "look I don't know how you're feeling now, or what's going on with you. But I'm here if you want to scream, shout, talk or yell at someone, am here if you need somebody to talk to when you're ready to talk, don't forget I lost a mom too. Even if you don't want to talk to me talk t Chloe she understands more than you know". And then she left and I just kept sitting Jane paid for the funeral and more willed the house to me and her bakery she gave Jane, and her jewellery and valuable she gave to sally. The service was over and the reception was at home, my head wasn't even in the funeral and I was unable to do the speech, I had written but ally gave one for both of us. "When I was six, and my mom had died. Jane was there for me; she brought cupcakes and flowers for us every mourning and made sure me and my dad were okay. She told me although she's gone, she in heaven watching everything I do, so I have to be strong and brave for both my dad and for me and my mom would always be proud of me. So I want to say the same to Joshua, be true to you self and strive on and no matter what be proud you didn't just get to known such a remarkable woman, you were her offspring, and she loved you very ,much and no matter what from my heart I will know she'll always be proud of  you". Tears came out for the first time in days, as after that time in hospital I had never really cry or grieved. That speech showed me how much I loved her, and how much she means to me, both sally and my mom.

Everyone at the house was dressed in black and they were eating, drinking and saying nice things about mom, and were marvelled at how good sallies cooking is. I was angry because some of them didn't even know mom and her personality and I had even and went out to get some fresh air. That was when I saw someone I hadn't seen in years. He was amazingly good looking, had dark eyes, blue eyes and he looked like a member of the men in black when he came. This guy was the last person in the whole world I expected to see. This guy was my father.