Dangerous Trenches

Chapter 11

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Panting heavily, I lay the gun down on the sprinkle snow that claimed a spot on the cold ground. I imagined myself pulling the trigger on the man, but I knew the results will have Sebastian dead.

Walker and the Lt. inched nearer to me as Walker sun his rifle to his hands and the Lt. taking out his hand gun, "Walker stay here, me and Guerrero will go around." Walker nods in response; hesitating to leave my post, but forcefully tugged myself to follow the Lt.

Going around the thinking of the trees  and trying to use whatever cover there was left from the dying trees, we advanced close to the two men; merely smoking, while one soldier was begging them to let them go and came to Sebastian conscious.

Taking the dagger out of my boot I glanced in the Lt's direction, he gave me the nod to advance in my crouch position. The main man went towards the forest to take a piss, while his men's back faced us.

My throat was beginning to tighten as we neared closer and each step was becoming hard; my hand sweating nervously.

The Lt. nodding his head; I suffocated the man's screams with my hand, swiftly pulling him into me, then peircing the dagger in his back. We both did this simultaneously; Walker firing his rifle and killing the main man.

I ran to Sebastian pulling him off of the icy grass and hugging him tightly, but then pulling away remembering the Lt. is here. "Let's get back to base before more come." I put my arm over Sebastian's waist since his forehead was still bleeding and was complaining of rib probably being broken.

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When arriving back to the base the other soldier bragged to his group of friends, Walker went to note his appearance to Connor, then I took Sebastian to small medic area.

I grabbed the alcohol and the white towel that laid around on the desk; Sebastian took a seat on the medic bed. Going over I pulled a chair over to him; taking a seat and patting the towel with alcohol, I get closer to him about to pat the towel with alcohol until he grabbed my wrist with a suddend reflex.

Staring at Sebastian puzzlingly he pulls the towel off my hand, "Sebastian I need to banda-" He grabbed me by the collar of my dirty shirt; kissing me hard with intoxication. Panting heavily I returned the favor: wrapping my arms around him, he smiled against my lips and pulled away with a exciting smile claiming his lips.

"You enjoyed it." He claims with an exciting tone, shaking my head in refusal. Sebastian stood off of the bed and slipped his fingers through my belt loops, pulling my waist against his tightening pants. He lingered his lips on my neck; teasing the achingly parts of skin, causing me to want to squirm under the pleasure and clenching feeling of knuckles to hold back.

Sebastian scoffs when noticing my fist clenching: he started to kiss my earlobe, then to my neck panting heavily. I growled lowly moving his lips to claim as mine starting to unbutton his shirt, but prowling myself off grabbing my jacket and briskly walking away.

I tugged on my jacket stopping on my tracks glancing back at Sebastian; watching him buttoning his shirt, I was going to go back to him but the thought of Walker and Sebastian brought me to walk away instead. It was already beginning to get dark and I needed to ask Walker to explain what is going between them.

Walking to the sleeping area: Connor stood leaning against the wall smoking a cigarette, I chuckled at the sight asking Connor if I can have one, replying and lighting it up. I leaned against the wall besides him, ruffling back my hair; inhaling and exhaling the smoke.

Before I can inhale the smoke then exhale Connor said, "Did you both fuck already?" in the most straightforward tone; causing me to cough multiple times before I can catch my breathe and hear Connor at my reaction. I glared at him in a questioning position of how he knew, but then I took a look at myself taking note that I look like I possibly or almost fucked someone.

"No, fast-pace isn't my drift." I explain amusingly throwing the cigarette on the ground then stepping on what is left of it; Connor chuckles at my words giving off a disappointed expression throwing his on the ground too.

Connor sighs shaking his head starting to walk away before he turns around crossing his arms and deciding to walk back over instead, he stood in front of me and said, "Rual, I know you love the man and saying or showing it isn't your thing, but this war doesn't wait on pussy's to play catch-up. I suggest you get your shit straighten or this fucking war will do the job for you, and it surely won't be gentle." Connor gave my shoulder a squeeze; taking another cigarette and lighting it as he walked away, seeing the foggy smoke whispering away.

Connor was a man of that would observe and tell you what needs to be heard; it was harsh, but the job was done by the time he finished, he reminded me a lot of my Tia and primo who had a way of being straightforward when it was necessary.

I went jogging back to the infirmary where I last Sebastian before I can enter Walker grabbed my arm, "Walker what's the mat-" He shushed me dragging me a few feet from the infirmary and handing me my rifle. I grabbed it nodding for a thanks, but he only tugged my arm back glancing at his feet then back at me.

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I sat down on the stool holding the letters close to my balled fist as I watched Sebastian sleeping on the medic bed; I painfully put the letters inside of my jacket pocket standing from my seat and pecking his lips.

I rested my hand on his cheek wishing it didn't have to end like this, but he lied to the whole time and I don't think this time it will be fixed; not like before, taking the letters out of my pocket I rested them on the stool chair and walked out of the infirmary.

I can feel them rolling down my cheeks as I swapped the pathetic tears away that kept me from walking before I leaned against the wall and broke down into sobs, I started to feel dizzy Walker coming over and helping to the sleeping area. The words kept ringing the inside of my head as I did not want this to be true; the news kept circling around my head, the thoughts of how did I miss this could be possible.

Walker pulled me into a bear hug as I began to gasp for air that needed to feel my lungs, "Why Walker?! Why?!" I sobbed painfully falling to the ground as he helped me to the room. Once we arrived I began to start to throwing things around; I would not allow myself to believe it-it would be to painful to believe what happened rather than facing the fucking reality.

Walker pinned me to the bed until I calmed down telling me to calm down or the Lt. will have to restrain me like the incident from before; I panted heavily wanting to allow myself to embrace this reality with a 'fuck off' response, "I can't do this anymore Walker, I can't I lost everyone." Walker sighs letting go of me as he sat at the end of the bed.

"I lost everyone too Rual, this war is only getting worse this is just the beginning." Walker kept watch of me incase I did anything I might regret, but I wanted to for the first time hurt Sebastian for he had done, but if I did that I will be hurting a person that I have come to love and care for; the past four months we have been extremely close.

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