Behind Closed Doors [On Hold]

Broken

Sophie's P.O.V.

Just an F.Y.I. This chapter may contain scenes of rape. If you are not okay with that I'd suggest you don't read.

My hands shook as I made my way to the window. Memories come flooding back without warning. I pause for a moment and close my eyes, willing them to go away. Biting my lip I peek inside. When I see that nothing is out of place I let out the breath I'd been holding in.

As quietly as humanly possible I push open my window and climb inside.

I look into my now broken mirror and see silent tears rolling down my face.

*Why do I have to be so messed up?

Letting out a shaky breath I sit on my bed, letting my bag fall to the floor.

Thoughts run through my mind.

Why? Why did he kiss her? He doesn't even know her. HE DOESN'T KNOW HER. He.. He doesn't even know me. Why do I feel this way? We're not together... Are we?

It's getting harder to breath. I feel so trapped. It's like something is just weighing down on my chest and has no intention of stopping. Tears fall from my eyes as I struggle to take in air. I can feel myself falling to the floor but I can't stop. I feel suffocated. I know it's coming before it actually does. The darkness is settling in. I feel so calm here. Nothing to worry about. Just darkness.

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It's dark when I wake up. I feel dizzy as I make my way to stand.

Something woke me. A thud?

No...

A rattle.

I look to the door with wide eyes as its shoved against.

He can't open it. I blocked it. He can't..

Once again the tears are falling. I scramble up onto my bed and roll up into a ball.

Why? Why me? I can't. I just can't handle this again.

It's so loud. It's all I can hear. I cover my ears to try stop the noise but it just feels trapped inside my mind now.

My body is shaking from the fear. It's got me gripped in its hands. It won't let me go. I can feel it laughing at me. Mocking me. This is what it lives for. It lives to mock me. Make me less than I already am.

It's.. It's stopped.

Tentatively I open my eyes and look to the door. The dresser has been moved but it's still there. He's left my door open. Slowly I make my way over. Reaching around my dresser I close it and push the dresser closer. My heart is pounding in my ears. My hands are shaking and my breathing is uneven.

I try taking deep breathes to calm myself as I make my way to my bed once again. I get under the covers and lay there. Thinking about what could've happened.

It could've happened. Again.

I could feel tears fall from my face and onto my pillow as I remember the first time I was ever, truly scared.

**Flashback starts here*

The noise has finally stopped. I can sleep easy now.

My eyes were heavy as I drifted off to sleep. As I felt the tiredness begin to take over I was suddenly awoken. I looked to the door as it opened to reveal mothers new boyfriend.