As long as you love me (kevin and you)

Tears 2/2

  Yesterday was a tough day, I cried so much, my head began to hurt a lot, my nose was runny, and my eyes begged me to close them. Jun helped me go to bed after preparing a bath for me, he's been such a great brother.

Before I fell asleep I thought about all the things he said to me, he was absolutely right. What if I'm the one who gets hurt in the end? All because of this stupid plan of taking revenge for a guy who isn't even worth the struggle. Every little thing he did roamed through my mind giving me an unneeded chest pain.

   All those things led me to a choice... I'm gonna tell him that I don't want to see him anymore...

I already told Laura this morning, she was okay with it, she agreed with my brother and even realized how stupid this was as well, as did I.

Right now I'm waiting for Eli in the park, everyone seems gloomy today, which isn't helping me whatsoever.

"Kyung Mi..." Eli appeared, he went up to me and hugged me tightly; this is going to end badly... I just know it.

"Eli I need to-..."

"Kyung Mi, I'm glad you called to meet you, I have some amazing news.... My mom wants to meet you..." He smiled.

...Well shit.

"Eli I...-..." I was interrupted once again.

"I know we're not even together officially but, I've told her so much about you, she really wants to see you. Please, I want you to meet her as well" his smile only grew bigger and his eyes had a subtle gleam to them, he sounds so happy, I don't want to break his heart...

Just as he was about to speak again, I leaned in and kissed him deeply, deeper than any other kiss I've ever shared with him, I don't say anyone because he's the only guy I've ever been with.

I pulled away slowly.

"Is that a yes?" He breathed.

"Yes, I'll go meet her..."

"Great!, I'll talk to her and send you the details tomorrow, she will love you so much babe." He pecks my lips.

"Eli, before you say anything else... We need to have a serious conversation about us"

"What about us?" He gave me a confused look.

"I'm scared, I'm so scared that you will end up hurting me again, i know that was years ago, but you really did break my heart Eli... You used me in the ugliest way... I just don't understand why?why did you use me?" I felt my eyes water once again, I'm trying my best to hold it in.

He looked at me with soft eyes, the guilt shining through. He wanted to say something but he obviously didn't know what to say or how to even start. At this moment I wanted to disappear, to just run away, I don't know why I'm showing this side to him, I don't want him to see my weakness, the girl I put away years ago is trying to break free, I don't want him to see that girl.

"Because you were part of a bet..." He finally spoke.

What...