The Words I Never Got To Say (EXO D.O. fanfic)

Chapter 27: The Letter

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Thinking over, over and over again. No matter how much I think, the words I kept so close to my heart did not want to stay hidden.

The year's almost over, there's only a few days before the new year starts. My heart wanted to start fresh without holding regrets so I started writing down everything I didn't get to say that year.

-The Letter-

12-29-13

I still look back and reread our old Face Book messages, wishing I could go back. I would go back to being a bridge if that meant we could be close again.

I'm not cold anymore, I made it out by myself. I don't cry as often anymore except for the times you come across my mind. You mean so much to me because you were the first person to be there for me. You would say that you would face the same pain I felt too. Those words meant everything to me at the moment because it was the words i had forever longed for. Your loving, comforting words... I loved them so much. I miss them, I miss you.

It's been a year now since I've started to like you. I have never liked anyone like I've liked you. I tried to hide all of my feelings and i tried to forget you when i felt betrayed but i couldn't. I couldn't get rid of my feelings and I couldn't stop thinking about you. I know, I know that you don't feel the same way I do... I know that you have no interest in me, you never had... You were just being nice to me, pitying me all this time. I know that you'll never like me because I'm lacking. I'm so far from perfect.

My heart still flutters when I see you. The memories we had together always come back to visit me. I sit around and wonder... Why couldn't i have confessed earlier? Ha.... Who knows? I don't regret liking you, i never had. I'm actually glad that you were the one I fell in love with. You were my first love, and yes I believe that it was love. I loved you D.O.... I know that I won't ever forget you, never ever... Well, here I am, confessing my true feelings, tell you the words I never got to say...

"I Love You."

-End Of Letter-

I read the letter over and over again... This was the first time ever where I was confessing my feelings to someone. I was really nervous.

It was getting late so I got out an envelope and put the letter in it nicely. I then wrote down D.O.'s address... This wasn't the first time i wrote him a letter... I put stamps on the envelope and took it to a nearby mailbox. It was freezing outside so i ran back in the house....

*I won't regret this right? I'll soon be able to forget D.O.... right?*

I felt tear drops running down my face as I went back into my house and fell asleep, again staring at the candles D.O. had given me while listening to my lullaby, Everything's Alright.

*Few days later*

D.O.'s Point of view

I woke up to the sound of my moms voice.

"D.O.! Wake up and eat breakfast!"

I got up on my feet and headed downstairs to eat. My mom had made pancakes.

Me: Umma, you want me to help?

Mom: No it's fine, I'm nearly done.

Me: Okay.

I set up the table and started eating with my mom and sister. My dad had already gone to work. We ate quietly until my mom broken the silence.

Mom: D.O.-yah, you got a mail from someone. I think it's from Jenny again.

Me: Oh really? Where is it?

Mom: There on the counter.

She pointed at counter top behind me.