The Words I Never Got To Say (EXO D.O. fanfic)

Chapter 14: I Want To Protect Her

Chapter Fourteen

*The Next Day*

Yesterday was a blur... my heart's still felt heavy so I grabbed my pink diary and started writing. My pink diary was one of my most precious items. It was filled with everything I've been through, the good and the bad.

I started writing:

Dear God,

What should I do? I feel terrible... I really let D.O. down, I screwed up. Please help him, I want him to be happy and I don't want to lose him. He's very special to me, he was the first person to call me "Best Friend" and he was the first person I called "Best Friend". I don't ever want to lose him. Please help him through this time. I bet that he's heart broken, please heal his heart Father. I'm also sorry to Joo Mi, I feel like I caused her to stop liking D.O. I think that I made a big mistake. I should have done better. You tell me not to blame myself but I can't help but to blame myself... help me Lord, I ask of you...

Your truly, Jenny Park

I closed the diary and let a few tears escape from my eyes. I texted D.O. to see if he was okay.

[Me: Hi D.O.? Are you doing okay?]

[D.O.: Yeah I'm fine... What's up?]

[Me: Nothing really... Do you want to hang out by the park later? At like noon?]

[D.O.: Sure, meet you then!]

I decided to bake macaroons for D.O. I wanted to cheer him up and apologize. In the few hours I had, I baked the cookies and packed two apples into my backpack and headed out to the park... I saw D.O. waiting on the swings by himself... His back was faced towards me so I sneaked up from the back and held out the apples in front of him.

Me: Sah-gwa bah-dah-jwo. (please accept my apology (apple)- apple and apology in Korean sounds very close)

D.O. looked up at me, smiled and took the apples.

D.O.: Haha okay I will.

I sat on the swing next to him and then handed him the box of macaroons.

Me: Here! I made them... Eating sweets is the best way to cheer up.

I gave him a smile. :)

D.O.: Thanks Jenny, I really thankful that I have you as my best friend. :)

Me: Me too! Thanks for being my best friend and accepting my apple(apology).

We looked at each other and started laughing.

Me: Well I have to head back first, I'll text you!

D.O.: Wait!

D.O. stood up and gave me a warm hug.

D.O.: Thanks Jenny, for everything.

Me: No Problem, you can call me at any time... I'll be waiting for you.

D.O. nodded and broke away from the hug and I headed back to my house.

I looked back to see D.O. smiling and waving so I smiled and waved back.

I talked to Joo Mi to get things clear. I also apologized to her, she deserves a better friend than me anyways. I wish I were a better person.

*beep. beep. beep*

I got a text, it was from Chan Yeol. We've been texting almost everyday. I was worried that he knew that I thought he was cute. I think that Sehun might have told him. *sigh*

[Chan Yeol: Ey! Let's Jam. Wanna met at the school? 4:00, be there with your guitar ;)]

[Me: Haha okay sounds good man~ see ya.]

I hurried up and got dressed. I grabbed my guitar and phone and went out to the bus stop to catch a bus to the school.

I arrived earlier than I thought. it was 3:45. I took out my guitar from my case and started playing "Lovin' You" By Minnie Ripperton.

Loving you is easy 'cause you're beautifull,

And making love with you is all I wanna do.

Loving you is more then just a dream come true,

And everything that I do, is out of loving you.

La la la la la, la la la la la...

No-one else can make me feel the colors that you bring.

Stay with me while we grow old and we will live each day inspringtime.

'Cause loving you has made my life so beautifull,

And everyday of my life is filled with loving you.

Loving you, I see your soul come shining through,

And everytime that we, oohh...

I'm more in love with you.

La la la la la, la la la la la...

*Clap clap clap*

I looked back at the classroom door, surprisingly I saw D.O.

Me: Kyung Soo-sshi!

D.O.: You've been practicing! Haha~ You sound good ^^

Me: Haha thanks, (I said blushing)

It was 4:30 and Chan Yeol still wasn't here. I soon after got a text from Chan Yeol.

[Chan Yeol: sorry, I think I'm going to be late.]

[Me: OH its okay! I can wait ^^]

D.O. was still in the room.

Me: D.O.... is there a song you want me to play?

D.O.: Umm hmm... Ooo! I know "Moon River"!!! That's like my all time favorite song.

Me: Hah okie dokie.

*One Hour Later*

Me: *Yawn* I'm so tired.

D.O.: What are you doing here anyways?

Me: I was suppose to meet Chan Yeol here but he's late.

D.O.: Here, sleep, I'll wake you up when he comes.

Me: Oh Okay thanks bud... If you get bored I have books in my bag you can read. The pink notebook Is my diary... you can read it if you want... *yawn* night...

D.O.'s Point Of View:

I opened to the first page in Jenny's diary:

December 12, 2010

Dear God,

Today, my dad came over... He got in a fight with my mom again. It was so scary... I can't fall asleep. God, I know that my dad is a non-believer but please forgive him. Heal his cold heart and give him a second chance.

Her entries had some heart breaking events, I flipped to another page....

March 2012

I just want to leave this world... it hurts too much. God, when can I come up and meet you? Can't I go right now? You tell me to wait and to stay strong but God, its so hard....

I hurts me to read this. I saw traces of dried tears on this page...

*She must have had a hard time. Why didn't I know this? I want to protect Jenny from this pain, I want heal her past.... I want to care for her like she's cared for me.*

I closed the pink diary and watched Jenny sleeping, she looked calm.

I know that things didn't work out with Joo Mi and me but I still haven't been able to give her up. I will wait for Joo Mi, wait until her feelings return.