You changed my life [Rammstein]

Chapter 07: I think I'm in love with you

Ellipse ~ a week ~

I'm in the kitchen preparing dinner with Emil. To say the truth, I no longer feel he's my kidnapper nor have a grudge against him for the rape... But still, I stay away from him.

We don't sleep in the same place, Emil sleeps in the living room while I take his room. He gave me back my phone, without the chip of course, but I don't care as long as I can listen to Rammstein songs that makes me feel alive.

Despite this, I still haven't completely recovered my memory. There's things that are still unclear to me.

-5 tablespoons of flour, not 50! Exclaims my friend. You can't read or what?

-There's a fault I'm sure! We are preparing a pie, not pancakes! I reply with amusement.

Pancakes... I remember very well that a woman prepared them for me the day of my abduction but I can't remember who she was...

-Something's wrong, Jim? Emil demands, laying his hand on my shoulder.

I jump to the contact but answer immediately:

-Don't worry, it's just a piece of my memory that wants to reach its place.

-Okay. He simply answers but I notice the worried look he displays.

The dinner's preparation continuous, then I walk away from the work table to go turn on the television o and watch my favorite movie.

I zap channels without finding the one I'm looking for but immediately stop when I see the large red letters "URGENT! THE CARTERS STILL SEEK THEIR DAUGHTER "I look at the screen.

A middle aged woman stands in front of her husband, or whatever is their relationship. I get up the volume and hear:

-We are near the Carter's house, Mr. Gabriel the famous business leader refuses to talk to us. Says the reporter then adds: rather let's ask for information to his wife.

-Madam Carter, can you tell us about the sudden disappearance of your daughter? He asks her.

The woman wipes her tears with a handkerchief and then answers:

-The Morning of her disappearance, she went to see her favorite rock group but didn't return home after. Her friend Jason Black said he had contacted her some minutes before the kidnap.

-Who do you think is the kidnapper? They haven't called you yet for a ransom? And...

I don't listen to the woman's, to MY MOTHER'S answer that she gives him because I feel the tears start to fall down my cheeks.

-And what will you tell the kidnapper, if he's seeing you right now? Says the journalist.

-We are asking him only to ge-

The screen turns off suddenly, I look back and see Emil looking at me with a worried look.

-Jim? He starts, approaching me.

-I want to be alone. I say hardly, tears strangling me.

-Jim, listen to me...

-NO ! I want to go home ! I cry, attacking him.

Emil easily grabs my hands and sets us back until I feel the walls pressing against my back.

-Let go of me ! I get angry pulling my hands.

-Jimaima, calm down. He puts his hands on either side of my waist to keep me firmly against the wall. Look at my eyes.

My eyes searches his and I see a sparkling gleam in them. I begin to relax but still fix them, anyway.

-Yes, like this... relax, all is well. He whispers against my ear and then back to face me.

Here, and without realizing it, I throw myself on him and kiss him. Emil freezes for seconds but immediately lets his weapons down and exchanges a feverish game with me, then makes us back to the sofa.

He deposits me on the sofa and continues to kiss me while opening the buttons of my blouse. Suddenly, a sound rings and startles us, it's that of the stove...

-The Pizza is ready. Emil says, rising. And I think the pie too.

I stand up and put myself in order. I follow the brown in the kitchen and help set the table and then we get together to eat. He gets up after a few minutes, after finishing his slice of pizza.

-Where are you going, brown? I ask him.

-I will not be long, wait for me right here... Responds my collaborator.

I continue my dinner then remove the plates and cut two chocolate cake slices. At the same time, Emil comes back and I notice that one hand is behind his back.

-Princess... Starts Emil. I want you to make me a promise...

-which, Emi? I ask, taking a bite of my cake.

-Stop eating and come here... He says, holding one hand to me.

The plate placed on the table, I walk towards him curious to know what he's hiding. To my surprise, he kneels before me and shows the hand he hides.

-You promise to never betray me and stay with me, whatever happens?

-Emil... I promise. I say, pulling my ring. But will you do it, too?

-Up to death... He whispers and puts on his.

Emil gets up and lays his lips on mine to seal our agreement. Then everything steals... I cling to my friend's neck and deepen our kiss, then get back to let us take our breaths.

-Let's go to the room... I breath against his ear.

The brown holds me in his arms like a princess then takes us to his room where he keeps kissing me feverishly. Everything starts to steam and I don't really remember what happened next.

I remember he hesitated for a moment, too afraid of hurting me. But he ended up, all the same, by surrender...

Our bodies are covered with sweat and Emi is still out of breath. I stroke his soft hair, then leave the sleep take me over me.

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When I wake up, it's always night. I get up from the bed and pull a sheet to cover my naked body and then go take a bath. I think back to our night and flush feeling shame overwhelm me...

I finish quickly and put on my clothes which are lying around the room. I go back to bed and sit next to Emil who just wake up.

-You don't blame me for what happened yesterday?

-Not at all, if I think... I'll say that you are also forgiven for the other day, although I don't remember what happened than.

Emil puts his hand on my cheek and approaches to kiss me when suddenly blinding spotlights illuminates, then a voice follows.

-Emil Reinke! The police is surrounding the whole house, release the girl and get out immediately!

They finally found me. But now that I don't want to go back home...

to be continued...