You changed my life [Rammstein]

Chapter 29: Sophia and Till...

POV TILL:

I am in my room sitting on the bed holding my head in my hands. What I have just discovered leaves me speechless.

I look at the box of medicines that lays on the bedside table and think of the reason that pushed me to despair, to the point of wanting to die...

~ FLASH BACK ~

I am in my Mercedes in road to the hotel where my girlfriend resides. Today is our couple birthday and I am very excited to surprise her. I drool over the whole course, thinking about her reaction.

I wake up from my dreams and discover that I arrived at the building's bottom. I park the car in the parking lot and then enter and ask for the key. I notice the receptionist's horrified face but don't pay attention to it.

-All the left is right
All the black is white

All the fast walk slow
All the loose is tight

All the heat is snow
All the high was low

All the grief is fun
All in all, the rain is sun

I sing the lyrics of one of my new album's song while waiting for the metal monster's arrival.

The elevator arrives at my level, I climb in and then press the button on the eighth floor. I look in the mirror then brush my blond hair, and when it arrives upstairs I go down.

I look for the room 666 (the sign of Satan, I know, but it's ​​Sophia's crazy idea to choose it). I open the door with my magnetic card and penetrate inside, it seems oddly quiet. I move forward and here, a sound like moaning attracts my ears.

-Scheiße !! I swear inwardly. I am in a wrong room, in addition it's not the right time...

I turn around and get ready to leave the room when another gasp stops me on the spot. This time, my blood makes only one turn and then freezes.

-Sophia, you're too good... Murmurs a man's voice in an ecstatic way

-Yes, I know. Replies the woman with desire.

-Tell me that you love me, tell me that you love me more than Till Lindemann...

His words fall on me like a cold shower. My girlfriend was cheating on me during all this time. I move toward the room, trying to stay cool.

I look for my phone in my pocket with sweaty hands and then put the recorder on. I take a deep breath and then push the door to find myself in front of a blood-chilling scene.

-Fuck !! What the- ? Strikes the traitors.

-Till !? Shouts my assuming lover. I swear, that's not what you think...

-On my own bed, Thomalla? I shout with rage. How long has it lasted?

~ END OF FLASH BACK ~

I hear the recording one last time then get up and go to the bar table to get a cold beer. I pour a glass but end up throwing it against the wall without drinking. I take the sleeping pills then swallow several at once and swallow them with the beer.

Carry my soul ... into the night.
May the stars guide my way.

I glory in the sight,
As darkness takes the day.

I lie down on the bed and wait for my end to arrive. I think back to my stupid reaction to Paul's daughter and it hurts my heart. It's true that she forgave me and forced Landers to do it, but I still feel guilty...