Seoulmate

Chapter 30

Stand alone

Being alone is not easy for me.Lalo na ng naranasan ko na kung paano may kasama sa lahat ng oras,sa lahat ng bagay.Though i was alone all my life before i meet Mylene and Daniel,it's still different now.Nasanay naman na ako na mag isa.People i expected to be there is vanished before i even started to find out what life is.I grow up in an orphanage and they told me that my parents leave me there without leaving any identity but promised to come back and get me.But they didn't.So i thought back then,promise is just a word and meaningless.They don't mean anything.To me.

I sighed.The sun's started to show up.Palawan is really a beautiful place.Pinili ko ang dito manirahan pansamantala dahil sa ganda at nakaka relax na lugar na to.Nakahanap ako ng maliit na unit at agad kong nagustuhan dahil malapit sa dagat,tanaw mo ang dalampasigan.Lagi kong minamasdan ang paglubog at pagsikat ng araw,ang mga ibon na naglalaro sa ibabaw ng dagat,ang mga ibang turista na nag eenjoy sa tanawin.

I haven't call Mylene yet but i already send her a message that i am finally here and okay.Para di sya mag aalala.I don't want her to nag me when she see me again.I already sent the report about my work in Seoul here in our office in Philippines and officially resigned.Naisip ko maghanap ng trabaho kahit part time lang.I can't work with a fully loaded work because of my condition.Ang sabi ng doktor ay okay naman ang anak ko.Iniisip ko pa lang ang anak ko sa tiyan ko ay nawawala ang lahat ng pag-aalala ko at hinanakit sa lahat ng nangyari.I am wrong...i am not alone,i have my child with me.Ito yung pinapangako ko sa sarili ko na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa anak ko,na hindi ko sya iiwan sa kahit saan at kahit kanino.No matter what,parent should not give up their child.Hindi madali but i will get by.

Tanging ngiti ang isinukli ko sa bawat pagbati mula sa mga taga-rito.At least i have a friendly neighbor.Matapos maglakad ay bumalik ako sa unit ko para magluto ng tanghalian.Buti nalang wala akong nararamdaman na morning sickness at hindi rin ako mapili sa pagkain kaya walang problema sa bagay na yun.Maybe on my next check up i'm going to find out my baby's gender.Then i'll start to think of posible names.Iniisip ko pa lang ay excited na ako.

I wear the black two piece we bought when Mylene and i went a shopping last summer.My tummy isn't that flat anymore.My baby is growing everyday.

"Hi...are you new here?"

"Huh?"
A tall and handsome guy infront of me,and half naked.No wonder girls are all eyes on him.

"I've been here for a few months now and i noticed you.Sorry,don't freak out or something but most of the people here are all familiar to me."

Okay...

"Yes,i just arrived here...a few days ago."

"I'm Cane...you?"

"Bella..."
Cane? As in sugar cane? O baka Cain?

Cane is really his name.Napag alaman ko na half pinoy ito at taga dito ang ama nya.His mother is a French at kilan lang daw nito natunton ang lugar ng kanyang ama.He is my companion for everyday and he know about my situation too.

"You know...you two still have to talk,to sort out your miscommunication and your freaking misunderstanding,try to fix it and if at the end...it's not going to work,at least there's a closure.And at your situation right now,you really both need to talk.You owed him about his baby.It's hard to grow up without a father you know."

Tiningnan ko ito ng masama."Why are you always right?"

He take my phone and take a selfie of us while my eyes is giving him a death glare.

"Because you are wrong..."
Lintik na sagot yun.

"Oh...someone is calling? Wait...a video call?"
Hindi man lang ito nagtanong kung pwede nya bang sagutin ang video call na yun o hindi man lang sinabi kung sino ang tumatawag."Yes?"

"Who the fuck are you and why you're answering my wife's phone? Where is she?"

Napanganga ako ng marinig ang boses na yun at galit,nanlaki ang mata ko ng pinakitaan ni Cane si Daniel ng kanyang supladong mukha.
"Wife? She said she's single.I didn't see any ring on her fingers."

Kitang kita ko ang pagtagis ng bagang nito.Hinampas ko ang kamay nito at binawi ang phone ko sa kanya at inirapan ito.
"What? You're rude."

Seryoso ang mukha ko ng humarap sa tawag nya.Lalong kumunot ang noo nito ng makita ako.

"What are you wearing? And who's that guy? Why he's with you? Why did leave and didn't wait for me?"

"I'm in the beach...so i'm wearing a bikini? Do i have to wait to someone who didn't tell me to wait...specially when he didn't say 'bye' at least before he leave? You didn't even talk to me after that."

Huminga ito ng malalim."I'm sorry.I just..."

Agad kong pinutol ang sasabihin pa nito."Nevermind.Bye..."

I set my phone into an airplane mode so that no one can call again.Tiningnan ko ang katabi ko na umiiling.

"Why do i have this feeling that pahihirapan mo sya."

"Lintik to...marunong ka palang magtagalog.Dumudugo utak ko sayo ah.Tsaka hayaan mo sya,he deserve that."

"Poor guy...that's why i don't like complicated girl with complicated mind."

Kung maka-complicated to,akala mo ganun kalala ang sitwasyon ko.Inirapan ko ito at hindi na ulit pinansin.I sighed.Muli kong inilibot ang paningin ko sa buong dalampasigan and i realized the same thing everyday...i missed him.

Hindi ko mabilang kung pang ilang irap ko na yun sa sarili ko sa bawat messages na natatanggap ko mula kay Mylene.She's exaggerating over things that are impossible to happen.No way that Daniel will come here,and no way that he's so mad right now.Like...who cares.Magalit sya hanggang kilan nya gusto...hindi ko na problema yun.May gana pa syang magalit eh sya naman tong tarantado? He believed that bitch over me? Basehan ba na matagal mo ng kilala ang tao kaya mo sya papanigan kaysa sa taong maiksi lang na panahon mo nakilala at nakasama? I think there's this thing called instinct where it will tell you if that someone lied to you or not.Whatever.I don't want to stress myself over this kind of dilenma.Ikain mo nalang yun at manood ng teleserye na inaabangan ko gabi gabi at siniguro kong naka off ang phone ko para walang istorbo.I think those people in Seoul want to burn my phone down by calling every minute.