Girl With One Eye (Draco Malfoy Love Story)

part 20

I was there when the battle took place between the order and the death eaters,  i had witnessed sirius...my godfather....get murdered. Ever since the battle i have closed myself away more from everyone as the sinking realisation set in, anyone could die at anytime. I trudged around the school like a doll, empty inside at the death of another person i held close, the bullies that once annoyed me now tormented me, i never seen the man i loved since our goodbye. However he had sworn his revenge on my brother when he named his father as a death eater, his eyes had glared daggars into me that day leaving not one bit of my heart broken....but i didnt regret my decision to push him away, Axel whined under me as i laid on him, "only a year and a half till the next blood moon....." he nuzzeled me sadly "a year and a half and ill become a monster forever....doesnt sound too bad if i get to be with you i guess old friend..." i had gone off the rails i guess you could say, although i kept my grades up the same could not be said for my behaviour. Only the night before had i been caught flying around the school on my bed keeping up the twins legacy after they left, i had been told i wasnt allowed out of bed after hours but u only stated the obvious and said i wasnt technically out of bed, i hadnt ever seen a teacher look so conflicted in my life. I got up from my seat on the large flying dog that now stood at the same height as me, "better get to detention.. see you later Axel....." i petted fur and made my way back into the bustling school, winding corridors seemed to stretch forever but i didnt care so long as i could occupy my mind for Dra-....him. "right miss potter.....you know what to do". I drew out my books finding a letter from D.L.M, 'its been so long.....why now?'
'Thinking of you no matter what.... i hope your well..... i miss you. I dont know how to write to you its been so long but....Celestia, i miss your smile, your laugh, your carefree nature.... your not you anymore, i wish i could make you smile again, to take away whatever pain your feeling.....but i cant......
Please smile for me?
DLM'
I was puzzeled 'how did they get it in my bag?' I shook my head dismissively 'no attachments....' my chest had felt different after cedric and sirius' deaths....it felt cramped.... i clutched it finding it difficult to breath. "Miss potter? Everything okay?" U gave an out of breath nod "dear you've gone pale!" The next thing i know i find my world tilting sidewards, all sound gone and the only thing i can see in my mind is Draco's fearful face.

~~~~Draco's P.O.V~~~~

I had to find a way to reclaim my family's pride and favour of the dark lord, my heart was in shreds the day Celestia pushed me away, i had heard her cry after she sealed her door, i hadnt seen her much after that but i had heard she was getting in alot of trouble recently, even going so far as to get detention for hours after school everyday including weekends 'what are you doing Tia?' I sat on a seat at my manor having been summoned by the dark lord again, "i want them brought to me!" He ranted like this day in and day out but he must have thought of something "but i cannot rid myself of them both.....i need one... kept alive" my heart was begining to speed up with fear, my chest felt tight as worry filled me, "Draco, i heard you.....were buddied with the girl? .... poor boy" i snarled to myself silently "...yes sir.....i was" "excellent....i expect you to bring her to me little Malfoy" my heart froze 'i have.....i have to bring her to him?' "Do this and i will return your families rank, that is what you wish for isnt it?" '...and her' "yes sir....." "excellent! My boy...bring her to me when dumbledor...is dead" i hung my head...'could i really hand her over for power?' My mother placed her hand on my shoulder and lead me from the room "...you dont have to hand her over Draco....i know how you feel about her" "....i dont feel anything for her but friendship....it should be easy to hand her over" i tried to mask my true feelings, to make myself believe i didnt have any feelings more than friendship when in reality....i knew the way i felt about her wasnt what would should feel for a friend or best friend. I felt so torn, conflicted, i thiught i would be okay after some time passed and that letting her go would come easier if she stayed out of sight.....but it didnt seem to work like that.... i felt anxious, worried, fearful of if things had gone the way they were before. I heard from various gryffindors as i passed them that she was pulling pranks and keeping the weasley twins 'legacy' alive with mischeif 'she must be happy now.....' but that hurt me more than it should have. I came to a resolve finding anger and heartache well up inside me, that selfish and bratish side of me given to me by my parents began rearing its ugly head, for a boy who had little to worry about to suddenly find himself in a very difficult situation....it was stressful. With my tasks in mind set i ignored that part of me that tried to give me reasoning, that told me i would regret it....'...he wont kill her... shell be fine', i returned to the school and began my walk back to the school building passing the infirmary i had grown so familiar with, 'looks hectic in there....wonder what happened?' I was curious, its not like voldermort did an attack yet, and there was any quiddich so.... "So you say she was gripping her chest in pain?" "I -i think so... she looked like s-she couldn-nt breath" a shaking and distressed teacher told madam pomfred, "we need to look in there then..... we need to keep her knocked out and suddated, check her familiar and see if hes suffering simiar symptoms!" 'Familiar?...' i shrugged and continued walking ignoring the niggling feeling in my gut "ah mr. Malfoy" turning i found snape standing there, looking troubled and worried "yes sir?" "I take it you havent heard? Since you were........preoccupied" "heard what?" I asked casually not really interested "...there was an incident in one of the classrooms....a student collapsed unable to breath for no reason... she cant breath" "who?" ".........no one.... nevermind" he muttered defeatedly, i glanced at the door behind his that was cracked open allowing some light to flow through. "Thats my sister! Let me see her!" A familiar voice roared down the halls being held back by his friends, my intrest peaked as i heard potters shout and i suddenly didnt feel too good, "its none of your concern anymore Malfoy............" his words had me breathless....as if the air had been knocked out of me. Bright lights shone from the room, five of them, warm and a mixture of colours. But the warmest by far was the strongest, it radiated down and flowed through me erasing my fears of my tasks just like "...Celestia..." i smiled at the warmth till i heard crying....three sets of crying. Nearing the door i could hear hushed voices "how did she keep them going?" "Who knows...but if we take them out she can breath..." "but if we do theres the risk she'll-" "i know.....which is why we cant removed them from her....we at a loss.........seal her up" i peeked through the crack in the door only for my eyes to widen, five magnificent little light circulated around a white light that floated above her chest shinning light onto her soft features. I placed my hand over my mouth with eyes wide as i stumbled back, "...tell no one of what you have see malfoy....no one" i whipped around to see Snape, i nodded quickly as i began to run off to try and collect my thoughts and understand what i had just seen. But no matter how hard i tried only she occupied my thoughts, i had finished with pansy awhile ago, i had begun my plans on getting the death eaters into hogwarts but how could i get Celestia out? 'She doesnt want to be around me....' for some strange reason that thought hurt and i found myself even more puzzeled than ever. I couldnt get her out of my head, i couldnt stop thinking about the times we had kissed all be it in times of danger like on the second trial of the tournament, but i couldnt get the way her lips felt against mine... even after all this time. I tugged my hair in frustration and let out a groan of annoyance, i had to stop thinking of her, to focus on the tasks i as given, regret......i regretted letting her push me away, just walking away....'i cant regret anything! I cant!' I screamed in my head as i found myself torn in two once again, my anger from earlier had melted away however i had told Voldermort i could just bring her to him....if i failed i would die....'why am i such a coward?' I was fearing for my life but only because of one reason '....i want to live my life with her in it.... i dont want to-......oh god....ive fallen in love with Celestia Potter' the realisation made everything break like a dam, 'i cant hand her over.... ill have to think of something else' i had made up my mind that if it meant she was free and able to live....'maybe dying wouldnt be so bad... if its for her' i smiled sadly finally realising i was an idiot for all thought years, i rose to my feet and began my journey back to the infirmary where the potter girl seemed to spend most of her time, as i entered i found her laying on the bed like all those times before 'i love her too much....' my heart ached as i looked at her peaceful face and held her hand in mine only....it felt wet....very wet infact. Turning i found it covered in blood making my face pale and my heart to crack again, shakily i pulled her wristband off only to be met with a sight i wished i never seen...but i had to.........angry and merciless slashes bled from her wrist, i casted the only healing spell i knew and thankfully....for the first time ever.... it worked, i used the sleeve of my suit to wipe away the blood not caring if it ruined it or not, i kissed the scared skin before finding myself staring at her lips, the temptation seemed to be over powering this time as i found myself drawn closer to her sleeping face. 'She looks so peaceful....' my lips connected with hers, they fit mine perfectly but i soon came to my senses and pulled away quickly as i sat in shock 'i just kissed Tia....in her sleep.....what is wrong with me?! Oh sure dont have to courage when shes awake but if shes asleep who will know?!' I spat sarcastically at myself mentally. My lips brushed over her knuckles one last time before i left. And found a way....to kill Albus Dumbledor.