What's Wrong With You?

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Seth still had the sarcastic smile on his small face as he slowly distanced himself from Roman after they shared a long deep kiss. Roman kept glaring at Seth strongly while Seth breathed out the words, "You can even go this far to make me get out of here?"

He failed to keep his smile intact on his face as a drop of tear fell down his eye. He then turned back and ran out the door. Seth felt really hurt even though he had just had the first kiss of his life and that too from the one he loved. But at the same time, he knew Roman loved Dean and that kiss was just something that Roman had done to make him go away. He wiped his tears off his face and walked straight out of the building. He wasn't crying. He was mad and furious. He couldn't believe life could be this harsh to him. He came out to the street and stood there looking at a truck arriving on the road right in front of him. Even if he wouldn't get hit by the truck, his life had ended anyhow and he knew it. Roman didn't want to see him anymore in his life.

Before he could even give a thought to what he was doing, he walked further and stopped when he was in the middle of the road. He stood facing the truck that came rushing in his direction. He closed his eyes against the headlights of the approaching vehicle, thinking he would never ever open them again. He got hit, not as hard as how a truck would hit him. He felt something crash his body with force and pull him away from the road. His eyes remained closed but he could sense how he was pulled away from the road and his body landed down somewhere with a thud. He passed out within a few seconds as he was tired both physically and mentally.

The very next morning, he woke up and found himself laying huddled in bed. He looked around and was surprised to find that he was in the bedroom which Roman and Dean shared every night. He was alone in bed. He then remembered how, in the previous night, he stood at the middle of the road waiting for a truck to hit him. He also got reminded of how he was pulled away from the road. But who was the one who pulled him? It couldn't be Roman of course, after whatever had happened the previous night. There were no chances of him feeling bad and following Seth downstairs in order to get him back into the apartment, as he was drunk heavily. He was entirely out of his mind last night.

Seth heard the bathroom door locking shut and the footsteps right after. As soon as he found Roman enter the room, Seth pulled the cover over his head pretending as if he were sleeping. He heard the footsteps until they were clear enough for him to realise that Roman was finally standing very close to Seth. Seth made no movements as he thought if he interacted with Roman at that moment, it was going to be way more than awkward. He then heard as Roman spoke, "I wish if you can ever forgive me..."

Seth lay motionless until Roman got into the bed and fell asleep once again. Seth felt ecstatic from the inside after it happened. He knew he couldn't forgive Roman that easily after what he had done to him last night but he now had an idea that Roman was sorry. That made him feel happier. "I knew this guy was clean," he spoke in his brain smiling to himself. "He can't ever be this rude to me intentionally."

Later that morning, Seth awoke again and headed straight into the bathroom. He had a brother suffering from loss of blood at the hospital and he had to see him. He knew he was mad at Dean for keeping quiet and not letting him know about his relationship with Roman. But still he felt the need of going to see him. As he walked out of the bathroom after getting his teeth brushed, his eyes met with those of Roman's. Roman was just walking out of the bedroom and was all dressed up. Roman stared back at Seth, his mouth fell open in order to start speaking whereas Seth looked away and started to walk off. But he stopped walking as Roman called out to him. Roman then came walking to Seth whereas Seth did not turn to look at Roman. Seth got all curious to know what Roman would talk to him about as he stood right in front of him. "Seth," said Roman. "You know why I'm telling you this. Hit me."

"Look Roman, we can't do this right now. We've to go see Dean okay!?" replied Seth and continued to walk his way but Roman grabbed his wrist and didn't let him move further. Seth released a sigh and then looked into Roman's eyes. "You won't rest easy. And I won't rest easy either," said Seth and then punched Roman right on his face. Roman fell to the floor catching hold of his cheek. He breathed hard sitting on the ground. That punch really did hurt.

"I know I behaved like a complete jerk last night and I don't expect you to forgive me. But I'm really sorry. I wish you can give me another chance, Seth bcuz I didn't mean what I said to you last night. I was the one overreacting. Dean had talked to me about whatever you said to him last night and we were planning to talk to you about this, Seth. But just because you're not well and we wanted you to have a good rest and heal soon, we decided to do the talking later on." said Roman, sitting on the floor.

"Get up, Roman." said Seth, trying to hide his emotions. "Get up and just don't worry about me. You don't need to explain me anything. It's not that important."

"What!?" said Roman sternly, and got up from the floor.

"You said you didn't want to see me anymore. Why do you care to explain me everything now!?" Seth cried out.

"SETH!" Roman growled, getting enraged. He then walked up to Seth and stood so close to him that their noses almost touched. "Because of my actions, I almost lost one of the two people who mean a lot to me and how can I not care!? If our manager had not pulled you out of the road Seth, the truck would've ran you down. And I will always blame myself for this."

Seth felt Roman's voice getting heavier. "I care. And I know you have the right to get mad at me... for lifetime. Because, I feel really guilty to have ruined the first kiss of your life which was really supposed to be something very special. And even if you forgive me for this, that guilt will remain within me forever. I can never make that up for you, Seth." said Roman with his eyes brimming with tears. Seth was astonished as Roman knew what hurt him the most. The kiss. Roman had tears in his eyes because of Seth. It was something that Seth had never expected. Seth kept gazing at Roman as Roman wiped his own tears and swallowed hard. "I'd be finished too if we had lost you and that too for my actions, Seth!" Roman cried. "Wish I could make you get this, Seth. I'm really sorry."

Seth had a habit of tearing up seeing others cry. He felt the tears forming in his eyes as he watched Roman sob. He was too overwhelmed and he didn't know what to say. "I must really loathe you, Roman. I must really loathe you. I hate you! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" cried Seth slapping at Roman's chest childishly. He then wrapped both his arms around Roman pulling him into a hug all of a sudden. Roman was confused whether Seth really forgave him or not. He put his arms around Seth unsurely. Both of them sobbed quietly for a while hugging each other. Seth forgot pain as he realised he and Roman could lend each other their arms when they cried.

"I know you haven't really forgiven me," said Roman in his cracked voice, breaking the silence.

"Just like you had told me that day, Rom," said Seth, pulling back a little and looking into Roman's eyes. "I know it wasn't the real Roman speaking. Cuz, I know who the real Roman is." Seth smiled at Roman and a drop of tear fell down his eye.

Roman was astonished how Seth was so strong and determined by heart. He didn't deserve even a bit of whatever he had gone through, on the previous night. Even though Roman had hurt him real bad last night, he still was willing to forgive him and believed that he didn't mean to do it. Roman felt like an absolute jerk at that moment. More tears ran out of his eyes. "I'm so sorry, Seth!!" he cried out pulling Seth into another tight hug. Seth wrapped his arm around Roman's head that lay over his shoulder. He tried controlling his tears as he consoled Roman in his arms. "I should be the one saying this to you, Rom. I'm sorry, I tried to kill myself last night. I should've thought about you and Dean before doing that.  I was wrong. I could've ruined our brotherhood just because of something you didn't even mean to do."

"I promise you, Seth. I'll make sure I'll never ever hurt you so much so that you'd harm yourself. I'll be more careful from now on and will always have your back," said Roman, grabbing Seth tighter than before. Seth melted into the hug and continued to cry onto Roman's shoulder.

Roman and Seth felt their bonding get stronger by the heart to heart conversation they had and the hugs they shared with each other. They got more protective over each other from that moment. Trust was the glue that kept them together and they knew it well.